12-8-2009 - 9 weeks

My mood while writing this blog: frustrated

So, I finally got my numbers from the MD. They didnt double. THey quartered. 29,500 to 44,000. The nurse said it was good because they didnt drop. Well, they didnt double. I dont know the rules of the numbers. I dont understand if thats just a ground rule of sorts or if its just a guideline. So I remain optimistic but cant get excited until my appt on the 24th. I guess Im grateful that I havent had any bleeding or cramps. I still have some morning sickness. and my boobs feel like hot daggers are being shoved through my nibblies. these are all great signs tat everythng is okay.

Update- I called my MD today, of course they cant see me until my appt onthe 24th. I called my old OB'soffice, I know the RN there. I was told that my numbers should have doubled by no lessthan 66%. THey would prefer that they doubled but 66% was acceptable. Well, I'm about 5,000 short. So they told me its borderline- what does that mean? It means I still dont know if I have a very normal baby or if at any second, I'm going to have a miscarriage. My entire life is on hold and I dont think I can deal with this drama and tension any more. I just wish someone would at least try to make this easier for me ajnd stop giving me the "we dont know" story.