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	Age: Teen Age Mother Country: US Province/region: ohio City: Dayton Partner: Brian My fiance Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: No Occupation: Mother&Student
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28-7-2008 - God Help me Please..

My mood while writing this blog:
depressed

I Just Do not know what to do anymore.

I'm going to go crazy.

My bad I already am.

Ever since Ive had savannah I'm Not the same person I used to be.

I love mother hood, I don't really get stressed out with savannah as she's a great baby and she's a peice of cake!

but everything I mean EVERYTHING.

Brian, My parents His Mom His sisters his family my friends, everyone, I just wanna sock everyone in the face.

Oh my god. someone just help me.

EVERYTHING BUG's Me

I go off every 2 seconds I'm happy one Minute and Bitchin the next.

Ive been this way since savannah's been Born But Ive been tryin to Ignore it and I can't anymore.

I'm to the Point where I can't stand anything anymore where I'd rather be alone than with anyone.

I need Help. I admit to it I truely do. But I at first thought it was My birth control Pill so I stopped taking it.

I havn't taken it since July 12th.

I havnt' Started My period yet since Ive had Savannah so Maybe that's why My hormones are all FUCKED UP.

I just dont know what The fuck to do anymore.

Im gonna end up fucking up everything, and I know I'm soo in the wrong half of the time, I judge everything everyone.

I got all pissed off and mad cause Brian and His mom wanted to take savannah to the fair and enter her in the cutest baby contest. cause I didnt wanna do it. well She ended up WINNING the Cutest baby girl 0-6months =]

I'm so stressed Out, My parent's, brian, Brians Mom. Ughh I'm working On getting a Job as a Receptionist and waiting on a call back which won't be until after wedensday. But I had 3 (Interview's last week. back front desk work so hopfuly i'll get one of them.

But I think I truely need to be Put on some kind of medication But I'm becoming Phsyco. Im a Complete bitch 99.9% of the time expect for when it comes to savannah Im at Her side every minute shes My best friend My daughter and I love her if she crys I wanna hold her and rock her and cuddle her shes my world. she's my reason of living. she's made life worth wild.

But I just dont know how to handle my stress. even when me and brian are alone baby free I'm stilla bitch to him and I LOVE HIM so much and I remind him that everyday when Im not going crazy.

He's working on buying me a car and helping me get My licsens he is so perfect in many ways atleast in My eyes savannah is soo lucky to have a daddy like him.

5 Comments on God Help me Please..

staceyp - Saturday, 13 Sep
Hay Jen all these symptoms are what i have been havin and i often wondered if it was depression but actually it isnt. Having a new baby takes a HUGE toll physically, emotionally and mentally! Im afraid to say its part of the whole likestyle changing. I struggled there for a wile and i realy just had to relax and stop stressing bout the smalest things. I was going crazy and was such an angry person and can still be but whenever u start gettin mad just walk away and take a breather put savannah in her cot or somewhere safe and vebt for a wile then come bak. U will feel alot better. So what im really trying to say is u need to relax . Its not easy but nothing much is in the world its taking one step at a time. Liusten to the people who love u and the advice they offer as much as u may not agree or want to hear what they hav to say. I think for u another baby will make things more stressful on u and brian. Just wait till u know u are really ready financially etc

choppork5426 - Monday, 28 Jul
i know what ur going thru.been there done that and i still have my episodes every now and then.go talk to ur doc to c what doc has to say.gl on the job!

littlemisspgt - Monday, 28 Jul
It doesnt sound like PPD but it sounds like stress, like StaceyP, you werent from being kid free to "tied down" with a kid and new responsibility. You are stressed and annoyed and thats 100% normal but if you think you need help seek some immediately. I also urge you to get back on your birth control, getting pregnant right now isnt what you need. Good luck and keep us updated and all of us are here if you need to talk.

mandyd829 - Monday, 28 Jul
Its okay if you need meds. I needed them after my son was born. I was a complete mess. I loved my baby and being his mom but i couldn't deal with anything else. It didn't help that his dad was an ass. But i got on them. I stopped taking them for a while but realized i probably never should have stopped so i am back on them. they really do level me out and i am a much more pleasant person to be around now that i am on them. its okay. it doesn't mean you are broken. They help they really do.

staceyp - Monday, 28 Jul
Hay hun! I understand 100% exactly how u r feeling! im acting the same way snaping at every1 and getting all moody! doesnt it just drive u mad! Its so good that u have an understanding fiance that knows where ur coming from and is by ur side even when u feel so crap. Im very lucky in that way too! i guess its just holding onto what is real and seeing he positives in things rather than the negatives which is VERY hard to do! Its not easy being a mum and having these feelings and people to deal with but if the family annd brians mum is driving u mad maybe just saying to them hay i actually need some time atm to sort my emotions out and relax as everything is getting ontop of me and im sure if they are nice enuf to understand they will leave u alone. If not then ur better off staying well away from them. I hope this is of good advice! i know its a bit of a long message lol but i sooooo know and understand hw u r feeling! take care hun and i wish u luck in getting the jpb! prayers with and ur lil gorgeous girl savannah!xxx

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