03-10-2008 - Emotional Wreck!!

My mood while writing this blog: Tired....again!

OK so I am seriously driving myself and my family nuts with my out of control emotions!! My DH is about ready to lock himself in the basement and not come out till I have this baby!!! My daughter is at her wits end with me too, and the poor kid is only 12!! LOL...some days I am pretty normal, then there are days that i am completely out of my mind!! I get so crabby, then I get sad, and then mad...and then I am back to normal and happy. This all happens in about half an hour. I have an appt on the 17th with my NP, I think I'm going to ask her to refer me to a therapist or something. Because nothing I seem to be doing is balancing my emotions at the moment!

It helps to talk to you all here and to blog about my issues, but I don't think it's enough. I have MAJOR reservations about being pregnant again due to my DH and I splitting up when I had our daughter. So I keep asking him if he's ok, and why he is reserved about this and is he leaving me again and all this other crap that I can NOT seem to get past right now. I mean, we split over 11 years ago and it was for 10 months. But I just can't seem to stop myself from feeling anxious about it all!! He has assured me time after time after time over the last two weeks that he is not going anywhere, no matter how much I drive him nuts.

I'm not the easiest person to live with, but when I am preggers it gets even harder. My daughter actually told me that I am crying too much, and that she feels bad for me that the baby makes me sad.....THAT about broke my heart!!! Anyway, just wanted to see if any of you can relate and if so..... HELP?

Candy