29-5-2009 - Hannah, Vacation, Economy & In Laws

My mood while writing this blog: AAAAAhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Hi All!! First of all to all the friends that had their babies in the last three months, I am sooooo happy for you and hope that your little ones are healthy, happy, and adorable!! I haven't been on much, and I apologize for that! This is gonna be a long one so hold on to your hats ladies!! And thanks in advance for reading my craziness!!

Hannah:

Hannah is well, just had her 2 month check up and shots on the 19th. She was a trooper till they jabbed her in the legs! Oh well, such is life and it's for a good cause...her life! Well in the last few weeks things are getting harder with her and her colic! She is having bough’s of if mainly in the evening, and won't settle down for more than 10 minutes at a time. It is very trying for Jason and I and I think that he realized that I am still doing all the work even though I have gone back to work. Which I set straight two days ago with a complete melt down! Anyways, Hannah is now trying to sit up and is pushing up off the floor and cooing! That part in wonderful, but I can do without the colic! She loves going to Aunty Kathy's during the day while I work, sometimes I swear she's mad that we bring her home! LOL!! Other than that she is happy and healthy and growing like a weed!

Vacation:

So I just came back to work from 8 weeks off for maternity leave, and am already planning to be gone in July for a week at the cabin! I can not wait, it's a yearly tradition we've been doing since I was 14 years old. Now that I am grown and have my own money I get my own cabin at the resort that we stay at. It's small three bedroom cabin and not really fancy or anything, I mean like no TV or Air conditioner...it's never that hot though. We go up there and spend a week with other family and swim and fish and just have a great time. Now we have a new baby to consider when we go and I am trying to figure that out now cause we don't leave till the 4th of July to go up. I love it, and can't wait to go....even the kids love it even without a TV!! I love that part cause we get to spend time together doing things!! So five weeks and counting till vacation!!

Economy:

I know that a lot of people have been hit hard by the recession and bad economy here in the US. We are one of them! My hours at work have been cut back and sales are down so I am losing commission too! And Jason is no longer working overtime, and his company is taking away some benefits that were previously free to them. HE hasn't taken a cut in pay, but the lack of overtime isn't helping to balance what I am down! When I went on work restriction I was only working part time, and took a hit in the pocket book. Then I come back and wham I get it again but not by choice this time. So we are slowly but surely falling behind every month. It has gotten so bad that we are talking about moving! I really don't want to, but at this point we really don't have much choice in the matter! So there is some more stress to add to the pile!!

In Laws:

So if you've read any of my blogs you know my feelings towards my in-laws! Well, they are coming up for a visit from Arizona to see Hannah! DAMN IT! I really wish I didn't have to be here to see them at all, but in this case I don't have a choice...kind of a running theme in my life at the moment...and I don't like it! Jason's mother was here when Hannah was born but not his dad, so they are coming for some family reunion and will stop in to say hi. Yeah RIGHT! They are such asses that they'll probably stop in on the way to airport to depart home! Well, the good news is that my sister in law and nieces are coming too...that part is AWESOME! I have help to raise the girls since they were babies, and are now 15 and 11! I miss them so much, I used to see them all the time and now it's hard just to get a call or email in to them. Thanks to email, myspace, face book and text messages I get to talk to them maybe once a month! LOL!! They are social butterflies!! So I can't wait for them to get here, it's just too bad that his parents are coming with them. And just so you know, I make them all stay at a hotel, cause they are all picky as hell and the last time they stayed at my house I about killed them! Man it was terrible!!

So all in all life is kinda weird and I am coming to realization that my old life is gone and isn't coming back. Which makes me sad, but at the same time I am starting to see the future and I can only hope that it will work out to be better than what I lost! I know that’s selfish, but that’s how I am and that’s just it. I've been really moody lately and wanting things to go back to the way they were...but that not gonna happen and I have no choice in that either! So, onward I march to the beat of a precious baby girl!!

Take care and talk to you all eventually!!

Candy