26-10-2010 - My IVF Rollercoaster..

My mood while writing this blog: Blah

10/13/10 9dp5dt(14dpo) Hpt's are negative and beta comes back at 2.5. Nurse says that is usually considered a negative but she wants me to hold out hope until Friday and say to keep taking meds and if I get a bfp on Friday to come in for another beta, but if it's negative to just stop meds.

10/15 negative hpt stopped meds

10/17 took another test for the hell of it, no second line after a few mins so I sat it down and forgot about it until the next afternoon. When I looked at the test before throwing it away, I noticed it has a second pink line. I took another test and it had a faint pink line. I called my nurse, she said to come in the next day for another beta and to start my meds again. Later that night I went to the store and bought an answer brand test and a clear blue digital. The Answer test had a second ever so faint line so I used the digital about fell out when it said "Pregnant". I called dh into the bathroom, he had not bee impressed with my dollar tree postives...men don't get that a line is a freaking line! Anyway, I showed him the answer and said well can you see that second line and he said year I see a FAINT line...again not convinced so I whipped out the digi and said WELL CAN YOU TELL THIS ONE IS POSITIVE? Needless to say he believed that one LOL. I was shaking like crazy. I couldn't believe it, then I remembered that I had started spotting earlier that day so I knew I had to be cautiously optimistic.

Here's the pics of my BFP...the answer test is faint and hard to see because of a glare

10/18 I went for my second beta...they said they wouldn't have the results until 8pm UGHH! Well 8pm came and went. They finally called around 9 and said the results had not come back and they would call in the morning. During this time the bleeding had gotten heavier...more like full flow. I was up all night because of it.

10/19 They call and tell me my beta was 21, very low but it had doubled appropriately. My progesterone was only 7.8 but the progesterone inserts I used can't be picked up in blood...or so they say. I keep hoping for the best even tho I'm still bleeding like I'm dying.

10/20 Just laying in bed taking it easy just in case. Took a walmart equate and got a faint plus sign!

10/21- Took another walmart equate expecting it to be negative got and another plus sign and it's darker. Went for third beta, this time they said it would be the next morning before they called....well it was the next freaking afternoon and I had to call them. I was pissed! The 3rd beta was 39 so still very low but also had not doubled. So they declared my pregnancy a chemical and said to stop my meds. A few hours later I passed what I believed to be what was left of my pregnancy and the next day the bleeding completely stopped. I haven't tested again since Friday morning but plan to on Wednesday just to make sure it's negative.

That's my week in a nutshell. Since we did get pregnant with IVF we may try again in February. It was a crazy ride, but I learned a lot and I know what I would do different next time. I definitely wouldn't test early and I wouldn't worry so much over something I have no control over. Oh and I won't stop my meds until I know for sure!!! I'm very thankful that I had you girls supporting me and cheering me on. Thank you so much. Until next time......