15-4-2009 - annoyed to the maxx

My mood while writing this blog: not happy

im so annoyed...i tried to talk to the babys daddy and he has the nerve to pretend that he is someone else and say that he doesnt know who i am or the guy im talking about....im so pissed off that im cryin. i hate guys. i wish i never have met this guy. i dont want to do this on my own. i dont feel like i should have to. i mean its not like im asking for much. is it so bad that all i want is for my child to have a father in his/her life??? i dont think so. i just dont know what to do anymore. i mean wouldnt you want to know that you had a kid...if i were a man i would feel horrible thinking about what i did not only to the person who had my child but for the child itself. i just dont know anymore. guys like this make me feel like a hoe. like i wasnt worth anything and its like they just dumped their shit on me and know im left picking up the peices. legally i might only be responsible for this child for 18 years, but this is going to be a life time thing. i hope i will find that right guy, and i do have my doubts but i wont give up.

ahhh guys suck!!!!