23-7-2009 - Ultrasound tommorrow

My mood while writing this blog: kinda worried, but prayerful

Let me start by saying that I believe God is always in control of everything..................................

I am having another ultrasound tommorrow to determine if I will have to get a c-section again and I am kinda worried and nervous at the same time. With my daughter everything was different I was in Atlanta and my doctor was a close friend of mine and we are still friends to this day. I was beyond confortable and confident with her. NO WORRIES at all with her. AT ALL !!!! I just need to stress that because from day one I have been kinda worried about my doctor I do not feel as though he is sympathetic to woman's needs it maybe his culture and it may not but he is just blah I dont feel anything with him. He is so set on me having a VBAC wether I want it or not LMAO. I had a DR appt on Tuesday and I told him that I dont care what he say God is in control and he is not and he will do what is best for the baby because this baby already belongs to him without a doubt. I guess the thing that makes me nervous is I dont feel close to him, and maybe its just me being a woman, but hell I would like to know something about this man that is gonna pull a child from my VAG lol or cut my stomach open lol anyway I am going to bed I have been in a not so good mood and just want my mommy here....say a prayer for me and little Aniah Mon'ae that she is in the right position and I will not have to have a c-section but if I do it will be in the best interest of the baby