07-5-2009 - SOOOOO READY!

My mood while writing this blog: excited

So this past Sunday i thought I was going to FINALLY have this baby! We got to Wal-Mart to do some grocery shopping and before I could get outta the truck I felt the contractions starting, so I thought I'd walk around the store some and try to get them going for real! About 30 mins later, I got so sick I had to leave. When I got home the first stop I made was to throw up! Oh man... so my back was killing me, the contractions were hurting and now I'm throwing up, sounds like a fun time, huh? :0) So I laid in my bed for about another hour (while my husband got my bag packed) and then we headed to the hospital. Contractions were strong and regular, but after 5 hours of being there the only change was that my cervix had "dropped" and made it easier to reach! :0( So, disappointed, I was given a shot of phenagrin for nausea and sent home. I had an appointment with my doc the next morning and when I saw him he said I was already at 2 cm!!! I went from nothing to 2, unfortunately he expected me to have her that night and here it is Thursday and no baby! :0( But things are good!

I know she's going to be here soon and so now I'm SUPER excited and a little anxious all at the same time. I can't wait to meet her and hold her and love her... but I know how big of a life adjustment it's going to be to have 3 children and not only that, an INFANT in the house again!!! It's been over 3 years since there's been an infant, my other kids are self sufficient and independent.... they can make themselves food and play outside! How am I gonna deal with a needy baby? I know it's going to be great, but I can't help the feelings. I'm even looking past the pain I know is coming with the delivery process... I know it's going to be great, I'm just nervous right now.

Anyone else feel this way?