03-11-2009 - Reflections

My mood while writing this blog: Thankful

Today my husband and I have been married for 13 years. We have been together for 15 and it seems like time has gone by so fast. I met Albert right after I graduated from college. He was everything I loved in a man. He had long dark hair, dark skin and eyes and the best legs you've ever seen.. I knew when I saw him that "I'd go out with him if he asked me." Well, it took a while but eventually we became friends. He was soooo much fun to be around, he was finishing his degree in art, 3-D sculpture, and man that was so sexy too! He and I had a lot in common, music, psychology and other things. He was easy to talk to and was quite a gentleman. I knew if nothing else came out of this we would most definately be friends.

I've never been the girl that guys chase or the one to get the guy. So many other girls were hanging out with him and most of them wanted to do a lot more. By the time we started dating, most of the girls had no idea...even though we were always together. They would blatently come on to him right in front of me but he paid no attention.

I haven't always been the most trusting person and almost immediately he knew me better than I knew myself. I wouldn't cross the threshhold to be called "girlfriend". I felt like everything would change and so I'd always just introduce him as my friend. Albert would do sweet things like tell me he wanted to "wash my hair" and insist that I take his car because mine needed to be inspected. I wondered everyday how I could keep seeing him because he was too nice...

Albert would play Sheryl Crow's "Are you strong enough to be my man" and I knew he knew me... We had some mutual friends that thought that "Head over Heals" by Alanis Morrisett was our song... I'd have to agree.

Albert had an opportunity to study with and artist in Santa Fe and that meant he would be moving away. I was sad but supportive, I knew I could visit and I loved Santa Fe. Something happened and the artist was unable to be there and Albert started working in film production. He would travel and be gone days at a time but he still based out of Lubbock. I was growing more confident in our relationship and him and he came home late one night and asked me to marry him!!! I was thrilled, BUT.... I didn't believe he meant it. The next morning I didn't bring it up, I thought it was because he had been gone for a while and was just "happy to see me". Not too long after that we found out that we were going to be parents... we were both happy and scared but he was 29 and I was 25 and we loved eachother. Now I believed that he was serious about getting married. We had a small but wonderful wedding and we haven't looked back since. I don't know exactly what vows were said but I do know what his eyes said to me... I love you Tina, and I will love you forever. He is the best, most nurturing, forgiving, loving person I know and I truly believe he was picked just for me. I love him more than words will ever be able to express.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME, I AM THE LUCKY ONE!!!!

P.S. And I'm not always easy to live with...