05-9-2009 - msg between the ex and I got real emotional / Is there a way I can become Kenni's legal guardian w/o my mom's consent / more with WIC / cam's zoo party

My mood while writing this blog: Busy

I WANT TO TELL KEIRON ABOUT OUR CONVERSATION, SIMPLY BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO HIDE ANYTHING FROM HIM. HE IS A GREAT MAN.

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  4 Min ago

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  Do I love you? Of course I do, I proved that when I said yes I would marry you and when I said my vows. I meant everything I said, unlike you i didnt get married because it was something to do, I got married because I loved you and planned on spending the rest of my life with you and ONLY you, not John, Quincy, and Adam down the street, You did me so wrong and my pride and respect for myself wont let me take you back. I cant. You know it used to kill me. Everyday I cried because I missed you and wanted you back, but now its no point in crying anymore. I dont even want you back, but that dont mean I will ever stop loving you. I cant just go to sleep at night and love you and wake up the next morning and not. Trust me I tried. Thats not real love. What I felt for you was unconditional until you went and broke that trust. True enough I still love you no matter how many times I tell myself and others I dont, but the truth is that I am not in love with you, but I am with my new man. Like I said before its your lost.
  
  
  

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  7:49 PM

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  man you no i love that lil gurl and i love you and i jus want us to work ma so u really gone tell me aint no way ever we gone be together i will move to florida venus man whereever to be wit you and the kids i love all of em because they a part of you i jus wont us to work it out and yea that shit di hurt she picture of the cat that is the daddy basically saying fuck me i cant believe she did me like that i thought she was a good one on the real tho
  
  
  
  

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  9/1/2009 6:43 PM

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  I would lie if I say i felt sorry for you, but I cant simply because you have yet to mention my daughter, you so upset that this lil boy aint yours, but did you forget that you have a 2 month old baby girl that is yours that you have not asked about, you called to see how she was doing, I know you adopted cam and all but I have come to acccept the fact that you are not there for him, but JhiaVahni is your biological daughter your flesh and blood and you just dont care, but you sad because the you wanted to be yours isn't, but I dont worry because when she is calling someone else daddy and you are just javion to her, then maybe you will realize. My daughter dont need you, but a real man would be there for his child where she 5, 500, or 500,000 miles away and you my friend are not a real man. Just an imitation at least my daughters and sons will know what kind of man they will not become or become involved with. I am sorry the child you wanted aint yours, but the one you dont care about yours is. Trust me if I could change it, I would. Keiron is a better man then you will ever be and more of a father to her as well.

  

  SHE DOESNT NEED YOU SHE HAS A GOOD MAN IN HER LIFE
  
  
  

  
  
  
  

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  9/1/2009 4:34 PM

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  man the baby aint mine i got the results yesterday kandi i dont know what imma do i love that lil boy and she just gone on wit her life and dont give a fuck about me. i guess this is payback for how i treated you baby girl i am so sorry on the real i treated you like shit kandi and im sorry ma i still love baby girl

LADIES CAM'S PARTY WAS A SUCCESS I HAD THE GIRLS THERE AND KEIRON BROUGHT HIS LITTLE BROTHER AND THE KIDS AND WE HAD FUN. EVEN I HAD A BLAST AND FEW LITTLE FRIGHTS ALONG THE WAY. IT WAS SO CUTE EVEN KENNI TRIED TO WOBBLE HER SELF THROUGH THE ZOO, BUT GETTING SO TIRED AND WAS GETTING MAD SHE WAS TIRED. IT WAS SO FUNNY CANT BELIEVE SHE ONLY HAS 6 MORE DAYS. MY LIL MAN WILL BE 1 TOMORROW. HE WILL HAVE CAKE AT THE CHURCH AND ANOTHER LITTLE GET TOGETHER AT THE HOUSE, I AM SO HAPPY I DECIDED NOT CANCEL THE PARTY. HE LOVED IT. I LOVED IT. WE ALL LOVED IT.