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	Age: 20 AS OF 02/21/2009 Country: U.S.A. Province/region: FL City: Jacksonville Partner: ITS JUS ME AND MY LORD & SAVIOR Children: Yes, 6 Pregnant: Not anymore Occupation: RECEPTIONIST
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10-10-2009 - finally got in touch with my aunt

My mood while writing this blog:
undescribable

So I finally got in touch with my aunt. She wasnt answering her phone so I called my little cousin who had her call me. Anyways we talked about maybe sending Kenni up there for awhile. At first she was kinda hesitant, but after I basically told her everything she agreed. She told me the only way she would take her would be if my mom agreed, she has yet to talk to her, which I know will be a whole new set of drama, but none of my concern. The only thing she dont think she will be able to fly down here to get her. I might have to fly up there which would be hard. If so it would have to be on a weekend that I dont work, meaning at the earliest two weeks from yesterday. We would have so much stuff to do, but my aunt offered to purchaser the tickets for us. This is really hitting me hard. I love my sis and feel as if I am betraying her, but I know its for her own good. I will go talk to her in a little bit. I havent told her anything yet, but I will. I am crying as I write to you ladies, but maybe I was in over my head. Maybe my mom was right and I shouldnt have tried to keep her. I feel like a failure because I couldnt get her to change for the better

***********************UPDATE******************************

So I finally just told her about my decision to make her go stay with my aunt and it was water works all over the place, me her, the babies crying because we were crying It was a mess. I told her that I know it will benefit her to get away for awhile and stay with my aunt I swear she must have known what I was going to before it all came out becuase before I could finish she was already tearing up saying how sorry she was and that she would change and so good. I almost fell for it, but I have heard too many times before. She kept begging to stay, but I have to my foot down on this one. No matter how much she acts as if she is improving over the next couple of weeks she will still be going. I feel so bad, but I know its for her own well being, so I will continue with my decision and thats final. I thank you ladies for helping me with this tough decision. I know its going to be tough to follow through with, but I have to.

11 Comments on finally got in touch with my aunt

tashak - Monday, 12 Oct
Again I tell you In take my hat off to you you have been through alot for someone soo young no your not at fault for wanting whats best for your sister. Yes you make mistakes in life and its only natural that we dont want the ones we love to make the same mistakes in life that we did. You have a good head on your shoulder and keep your head up momma your sister will understand the decision that you made for her was for the best in the long run somethings we dont understand when we are young but as we get older we understand it better. People are going to always have negative things to say but you know whats best for you and your sister.

laddgirl - Monday, 12 Oct
Keep your head up mommie. You're not a failure and unlike some.....I still have mad respect for you. It's hard trying to raise an adult. Your aunt helped you get on your feet, so she been through this before. If sending your sister to her is the best thing for her, I say do it. You may as well get ready for people to down on you cause they disagree with your decision...BOTTOM LINE ~ THEY NOT IN YOUR SHOES. Your sister is still part of your household, do what you have to do to keep your household together. Let God lead you in all your decision making. I'm sure your sister know you love her. You just keep your head up, keep God first, and rest on what you have been lead to do. Be blessed........

shamekab - Sunday, 11 Oct
Wow at first I looked up to you for trying to help your sister out. If you can see how I lost all respect for you. Your 20 years old not even an adult yourself and you wanna get mad at ur sister. Look down ur line of faults before u judge her. How can you point a finger and u went down the same path. I understand that is ur house but someone had to put up with u wen u was doin it so why not put up with her. U cant tell a person not to make a mistake they have to make the mistake on their own. Wow...

Jmajor-payne - Sunday, 11 Oct
Girl I am so sorry but u are not a failure!!! U are a GREAT SISTER to Kenni too good if u ask me and she still messed up she didnt see how good she had it...I think u made the best decision to send her to ur aunt!! Hope u get in touch with ur mom soon (but thats another situation) I pray for best and hope things get better once she and the babies are gone to Cali... Yes u gonna miss them but Kenni wanna act grown its time to stand up and be grown now..so God Bless!

almost done - Sunday, 11 Oct
trust me your not a failure shes 14 and thinks shes grown so as long as she thinks that theres nothing you can do to help her case shes gonna do what she wants to do no matter who shes hurting in the process... just keep doing what your doing and youll be fine...

ADDISYNS~MUM - Sunday, 11 Oct
hun you are anything but a faliure! i pesonally thing that sending her and the babies to your aunt would be better than a shelter! good luck! you did everything you could possibly do for this girl and she slaps you in the face... theres nothing you can do about her attitude! your doing the right thing sending her to your aunt! you have your own babies that you have to put first! good luck!

♥Mommy To 1 [Madilyn]♥ - Saturday, 10 Oct
So any updates on you & your babies, other than the family drama? whats your kids up to?

AKA.mom - Saturday, 10 Oct
either way this pans out when kenni gets older she will realize what you did for her and be thankful. I can only imagine how hurt you are. Ask God to help you make your decision and you will choose the right one. I am praying for you and your sister and all the kids.

mfbrown - Saturday, 10 Oct
I'm sorry that you are taking it so hard! It seems like your mom would be willing to send her over to your aunt especially is it means no mor kids for your sister for a good long time! (Since your mom was mad she got knocked up in the first place)... I really think that from what I can tell that it's the best thing for her... I think you're really doing a great thing for her and someday maybe she'll be able to appreciate it!! Sometimes the hard thing and the right thing are the same!!! We're all here for you... try to stop crying and just know that you are looking out for whats best for all in this situation!

flymommy - Saturday, 10 Oct
By sending her to your aunt, your doing the best you can by your sister. Your young with children and mass responsibilities of your own. You've brought her this far and now she has to go the distance on her own. Let her know that you love her and that you only want the best for her and the babies. Pray on it and let God handle the rest.

Soon2BMotherOf3 - Saturday, 10 Oct
Don't feel like a failure. U did the best you could but you kno how that is when you young and you think you kno everything and you just wanna do whatever you wanna do. Thats the age your sister is at. She will realize her mistakes and all you did for her as she gets older. Hopefully she will agree to going and staying with your Aunt. Good Luck!

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