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|12-4-2011 - Cannot get over the shock!
||My mood while writing this blog:|
still with my jaw wide open
Hey ladies, I just wanted to give an update, because i have so many things i want to say and i don't have anyone who can understand my feelings, I have take the news that I'm pregnant again quite nicely but OMG i guess i have so many emotions that are starting to sink in and now I'm just fill with worries, I haven't slept in 2 days I'm restless, tired and numb... this its not something i was ever expecting for I have the thougths in my head that this pregnancy its most likely an ectopic one, but i can't stop thinking that it can be a normal one too and if that the case that would be mean I will be a mother of 7 in a few short months, at the age of 24 years old of age, I know what u must be thinking and that's ok its a hard thing to swallow and understand, but its not easy being in my shoes.
Not to say that financially will be tough as well, I have to Upgrade my minivan were my kids barely fit, more mouth to feed, more work, more sleepless nights and so on, how I'm going to survive this? I don't know I guess one more shouldn't hurt, I have 6 already and it already tough but that's its why i opted to have a tubal ligation cuz i felt i couldn't do i t no more, I'm taking this news as a blessing from the lord and as a way of him saying that I'm not done, I Know my mission in this world was to bring all this beautiful kids to this world and take care of them and raise them to be good a productive adults! I'm very happy for that and I feel blessed to be chosen to do this, because let me tell you its not easy! I'm frightened, I'm worried, I'm tired and mentally drained just thinking how I will survive, how did this happen? Why me? My husband still in shock, he can't beleive it but he doesn't understand how I'm feeling, its very hard to go to sleep thinking its this an ectopic pregnancy? will i rupture? and if thats the case will i make it to the hospital on time? Ugh I want to be positive but today everything its finally sinking in! I can't understand so many things Ugh thanks for reading!!!
3 Comments on Cannot get over the shock!keepthefaith30
- Tuesday, 12 Apr Try not to worry . The docs will take care of you based on your hcg results. I dont have 6 kids but I feel everything that your saying. Some of us have the same issues with 2 or 3 kids but we love our kids and we just continue to do the best we can. Yes you are right its always a possibilty that the baby can be in the uterus. I have heard of it happening as well. Take care. mama27angels
- Tuesday, 12 Apr Well congratulations first of all, this baby was just meant to be!! I'm pregnant with my 7th as well. Just keep your faith, pray and it will be just fine:) liz82
- Tuesday, 12 Apr i know how you feel hun as you know thhat i am a mother of seven i know that you are taking it as a blessing but also you have your worries i went through that as well but at the end of the day all that matters is a healthy baby and please make sure that you get a ultrasound as soon as possiable because my sister had her pregnancy in her tubes and she didnt even know because she has four kids already and when she got pregnant she thought that everything was ok she started spotting and at times some bleeding they always told her that they didnt see the baby in her womb they thought that maybe she lost the baby but she ended up passing out and went to the hospital and they didnt know what was going on her blood levels were dropping and they thought maybe from her miscarriage but she just kept bleeding they rushed her into the o.r and realized that she was bleeding from inside and the baby was in her tubes and she lost one of her tubes she almost died . so plz stay on top of it . i hope i am not scaring you hun but i dont want anything to happen to you . you and your unborn baby are in my prayers ..