06-5-2011 - I have my doubts VENT!

My mood while writing this blog: IDK

I Don't know but something ins't right, I don't feel like my pregnancy was an ectopic I swear that in my heart i had always felt like my baby was in the rite spot, I don't know if this its unrealistic hope buy i'm not buying my doctor story..everytime i was in pain and i have an ultrasound performed i was able to show the ultrasound tech right where i was feeling my pains and it was in my left ovary, that's its were the mass was found.

I got the shot when my levels were at just 1400 and i was just 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant, I feel like it was too early to tell anything, a day before my surgery and 2 day after the shot my husband and i spoke with my doctor and ask him if he was 100% sure of my ectopic pregnancy and he said he wasn't sure but 2 days before he was I mean WTF? if he had told me 2 days before he wasn't sure i would had waited to take the shot! My husband and i were bummed by his responses and very sad by the fact that we may had killed our baby.

we resquested the surgery in that talk, and he did the exploratory surgery, Ok I was still in pain in the same spot, my ovary i had a little bit of arm pain i won't denied it but no my theory its this one: He went in and check for an ectopic he saw a cyst in my ovary and he said now what? I don't want to get sue well she had the shot I will remove her left fallopian tube and if the baby its in the uterus her body will absord the pregnancy soon then he told me that i was rupture which i don't think i was cuz i was in pain for days in my ovary i would had died if it was in fact true... this doctor had many years of experience but he had a lot of negative reviews in the sites.

He its not informative at all if u don't ask u get nothing from him not even a single word, I don't think my pregnancy was ectopic, period! I'm getting those hospitals record even tho i feel like he covered his ass pretty good! what its weird its that the other day that i went to his office he can't even look at us in the face he seen suspicious he was in a rush and was just in the room with us for 2 minutes and refused to do more hcg test since i have the surgery and he think it not needed anymore, he want to see me back in 3 weeks and that's all game over, I lost he win!!