16-5-2009 - 3 months PP and about the mother inlaw

My mood while writing this blog: annoyed and just tired

Alright... i cant believe that it has been 3 months already! it has gone so fast! Addisyn is doing great! she is still sleeping through the night which is amazing! she goes to bed around 10ish and wakes up at about 630-7ish... weve gotten so fortunate with her! we have also had a few firsts with her now! on tuesday May 5th she rolled over for the first time from stomach to back! i had to work to ty called in and stayed home with her (which was so nice because they dont have a lot of daddy addy time together alone) so i got a text that saying that she rolled over... so as soon as i got home i but her on her stomach and over she went! it was SO exciting! and then on mothers day may 10th she got her first helping of rice cereal! i had to do something... she would drink 6oz... and then cry because she was still hungry! and start sucking on everything! so i thought that she would try it... and it worked out great! im not going to give her anything else until she is 4 months of age... but even today she ate 2 tbs of rice cereal... PLUS 4 oz of formula! but shes a healthy baby! so those are the firsts with her! im so blessed with the little precious girl i have been gifted to have! she still amazes me everyday... now in the mornings... (most days) she will whine around 630ish am... and the minute i or ty go to pick her up she is smiling away! it is so cute... and she talks to us for about 20 min in the morning and then we feed her... oh i love her SOOOOO much!!!

as for me... im still having troubles with my self image... i know its shallow of me... but i just felt so much better when i was thinner... i dont know what it was... plus i think that my hormones are all over the place! im a bitch half the time and i no i am... and then i feel bad after... so im not getting the depo shot again... i think im going to stay off of birth control for a couple months so my hormones can have a chance to get back to normal... and see if my mood changes at all... and see if i can lose some of this weight! oh and not be a bitch all the time! lol... i mean i get upset over the smallest and most stuped things in the world that never would have fased me before! i got to starbucks and the put to much damn ice in my toffee nut iced latte and i get pissed! how stupid is that... but yet i still get upset... so i need my fun happy hormones back in my body! so no BC for me... except a condom of course! lol...

now the mother law issue! so i guess shes not that bad... but if i get pissed about damn ice in my latte i guess anything can piss me off easily... so im down by my inlaws this weekend... well since thurs... and i think ive had enough! im ready to go home... im sick of people telling me how to raise my child and "ohhhh DONT DO THAT!" "No do this..." ahhh i cant take it anymore... we had her in the carseat almost ALL day thursday because ty had a interview down by madison where his parent live... so we were in the car from 9am till around 3-4pm... i took her out occasionally... but she sweat so bad... the min that my mother inlaw picked her up shes like "oh my goodness she smells like piss!!!" im like WHAT!?!?! i told her she was sweating alot... she wasnt wet... to where she would smell like pee... she had just had a bath that morning! and she didnt only say it once... it was about 7-8 times... i was ready to slap her the next time she would have said anything! finally we picked of bath stuff and gave her a bath... but for goodness sake... dont keep saying that my child smells like piss... which by the way it was sweat and i could hardly smell it! but thats over with... then she says that im weird beacuse i like to carry her when we are walking and that i like to be around her all the time and also because im not really ready for anyone to drive with her... um im sorry... im a first time mother... i and im still getting used to things... and im still paranoid... shot me because of it! and well um.... i like to be around my first and only daughter! and then in the same breath of saying how we should do things with addy she says how she hated when her inlaws would tell her how to do things! ha what a joke! maybe she should think back about that and realize how we may feel... ok but im done venting now... hope you all had a good weekend and have a good night... or day... wherever in the world you may be...

so i guess i cant get a picture of my belly up right now but i will try again tomorrw... to late for me now... goodnight