23-5-2009 - AND THE STRESS BEGINS

My mood while writing this blog: sad, nervous, stressed, and not sure if im excited yet

well ill start off with some good news... my husband got one of the full time teaching jobs! so that is really nice... but there is a downer... at least for me... we are moving 3 hours away!

my mom and i are very close with eachothr... growing up i never knew my father... so it was her and i... my WHOLE life... (then my step dad came into the picture 10 years ago but he was there then he would leave and then come back... so it was still basically me and my mom) then when i got married... i moved a block away from her... i can see her mailbox when i go get my mail.... so weve always been close to eachother... shes been able to see addisyn all the time and help out SOOOO much... i dont know what im going to do without her...

i also feel bad because she is all alone up here... our whole family lives 1 1/2 hours away from here... (when i move i will be moving 3 hours south of where i live now... and 1 1/2 hours south of were the rest of my family lives... so ill be the same distance from the rest of my family) so shell be all alone... my step dad will stay at work 2 nights a week usually... so shell be alone those nights and not have anyone... shes depressed as it is being away from everyone... and now im leaving her to... i fell sooo incredibly horrible right now...

we need the job so i cant tell him not to take it.. but it is going to take a lot of adjusting...

oh also... my parents have their house for sale to move down by the rest of the family (then ill only be 1 1/2 hours away... if they do move) but now my dad (after 3 years of wanting to move) doesnt want to move anymore... he wants to stay up here... but he told my mom that they could by a camper... of mobile home... in the city that DH, addy, and i are moving to... and that they can afford her to only have to work everyother weekend... then she could come down and stay by us... which i wouldnt mind at all...

also to add on to the stress... we have to find a place to live within 2 months!!! we would like to get a home... so we are looking this upcoming weekend... so who knows... now this week i have to start to pack things up... oh my goodness...

ok im done...

hope you all had a good memorial day weekend!