23-5-2009 - Baby Daddy

My mood while writing this blog: ok

Well first lemme say I hope all is well with everyone. Some of you know the drama that I have been dealing with when it comes to baby daddy adn for those who dont lemme recap. Basically I haven't talked to him for awhile and haven't seen him since I was about 3 or 4 weeks preggo. Anywho he called earlier this week and for the first time we had a decent conversation(one where I was NOT going off about something) This time the conversation seemed to be pretty well. I think he will actually be there,yet I really don't know how to take our convo. Should I be excited or not. I guess my issue is...I told him that I had been planning to move out of indy (because I hate it here) and I let him know that my plans are to be gone in the next couple of years. Well he got all concerned that he wouldn't be able to see his son and he didn't think that was fair. I was surprised because this entire pregnancy he has acted as if he wanted to have nothing to do with our son.(could have just been me) Then today I talk to my brother and he says I just saw slimm(bd name on the block) and he was like sis you ain't got nothing to worry about. He was tellin my brother about how he tryin to get everything ready for his shorty get here and all this other stuff. I guess my question is why do I have to hear this from yo boys why can't you just tell me? Not that I'd believe you anyway but still! Why do men do that? Should I slack up on him and give him a chance or what? I guess my real issue is that I really wanted him to be here with me and go thru it with me. I think I just miss the companionship of him being around. We had fun together. Always joked and having lil games thru out the day we would play...never did we argue. I can't say that I love him but I can say I miss him...just being there. And because I am a hard headed ass I can't nor will I ever tell him. Well thanks for listening to me. I am currently at work(like always) and about to head to old navy since they had a sale on their flip flops today and go shopping.

Baby dust to all