31-3-2009 - ughhh

My mood while writing this blog: annoyed

Before I start this blog I want to say that in no way am I trying to be cruel.

So, a friend of mine just had a baby in December. Let me back-track. The whole time she was pregnant her husband kicked her out of the house and supposedly treated her like she was worthless. All because he wanted a boy and she was having a girl---or so she said. Guess we'll never know. Anyway, she made a big scene about him not being at the hospital on the day her little girl was born but yet she called and let him know she was going into labor and the "password" for the room. So, when he showed up and her family was pissed off she acted like she didn't know how he got there and then got police to escort her and the baby out when she left. So after making a huge deal out of it she got back together with him right after (which is her business..whatever). Anyway, she started texting me and some friends how she wanted to get pregnant again right away because she was jealous (I guess that I was pregnant...though I can't see why because she JUST had a healthy baby girl and that's all I've ever wanted and how can she be jealous of me when my baby isn't here yet and I'm scared everyday that something could happen to her)....Anyway, she let me know two days ago that she is pregnant again and when I asked when her due date was she said she was going on Tuesday (today) to the doctor and for me to ask her then when her due date was so she'd know for sure. So, I did and her reply was...."Don't text back. My baby died."

Okay, I understand completely what it feels like to lose a baby....I have lost two. and I know how hard it is when people text or call and ask how your baby is... but if I were to tell someone to text and ask me something the way she did then I would just wait until I felt like talking to text back instead of being hurtful... It's not just the fact of what she said that is so hurtful but the fact that I know exactly how she's feeling and by her telling me that she makes it seem as though I were being disrespectful when I had no idea...I'm not really mad just annoyed. I feel awful for her....really. But, I just think it's wrong...I know I was never rude to anyone who asked about my baby after I lost them....Yes, I would get angry (but not with them...angry at the situation) and want everyone to leave me alone but I would just turn my phone off or not text or call back until I felt like talking....and I would never have said something hurtful like that to someone who I told to text and ask me something. I'm sorry if it seems I'm not being sensitive to her situation (I feel terrible for her) but I can't being a little angry.