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30-3-2009 - So many random things running through my head...

My mood while writing this blog: contemplative

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So this is kind of a random blog, a few thoughts going through my head tonight.
For one, man I miss the days of nice even 31 day cycles! My first one since I've had Bekah (Dec-Jan) was 40 days, my second one (Jan-Feb) was only 26 days, and this 3rd one is going on 34 days, I had a couple days that started to look like the beginning of the last one, where I had just a drop of brown discharge in my undies, and then a day with a drop or two of red blood in my discharge when I wiped but then the last 2 days, nothing... I'm still wearing a pad, because the last one had the random really light spots for a few days, where I was only spotting when I wiped, but when it started, it gushed, so I DEFINITELY want to be prepared! I'm starting to see pregnancy signs though... I think it's just in my head... a week or so again we had Taco Bell for dinner and I got 2 steak gorditas and a quesedia and I couldn't eat the second gordita and then a little later got totally nauseated just smelling it, so I ended up giving it to the dog (who was THRILLED btw! lol!) and then I had some ice cream cuz it sounded good but I got nauseated half way through it (which NEVER happens with ice cream and me! lol!) and tonight I was putting away the left overs from dinner and I almost got sick... I don't know if I'm just seeing signs because I'm late now or if I actually am pregnant.. hubby went and got an EPT, but I've told myself I won't let myself take it until the 1st if AF still hasn't shown up... though I might wait a little longer just because she's been all over the place since having Bekah and that'll only be 5 days late, of course 5 days late was when I got my positive with Bekah! I don't think I am though, we haven't BDed a whole lot this month. I go through this every month huh? Are you all sick of hearing about my cycle yet? :-)
Next bit of randomness!! Bekah has had a tooth that's been hiding right beneath the surface of her gums for about a month, and Friday it FINALLY broke through! It's the one on the top, second over on her left, it's just a sliver of tooth sticking out, but it's out! and then Sunday the one on the other side on top broke through, and that one's only been there for about a week or so, I didn't expect it so quickly after the other one took SOOOO long! Poor baby!
CAUTION: Mushyness ahead!!
Sunday was my best friend's son's 1st birthday, he's exactly 6 weeks older than my baby girl, which means I have exactly 6 weeks till she turns one!!! I can't believe how fast she's growing! 6 weeks doesn't seem like very long, not long enough! What happened to my newborn baby? She grew up so fast! She's made the last year of my life the most hectic, but the most wonderful! Really she brings so much light into my life! I thought I was busy and happy before her, but since her I am WAY busier and WAY happier! And I have never been more in love with my hubby! It's hard to believe, I was sure I couldn't fall even more in love with him, but when I see him willing to change her dirty diapers, and playing with her and making her giggle, my heart just melts! and I fall more in love with both of them every day!
My MIL has been sick, and then her back started really bugging her again, she's had this happen before, so she goes up on Tuesday, to a pain clinic in Portland to get shots in her back, which will hopefully help! It did last time, so we're crossing our fingers. So because of all this she hasn't been babysitting for the last week, my WONDERFUL sister has been watching Bekah for us! (thank you my favorite sister! :-)) and she'll be watching Bekah for Monday and Tuesday, and then Wednesday my best friend might, or might not, depending on if her little girl decides to make her appearance or not (She's due on April 5th, so 4 days later!!) so if she can't then we're OUT of back-up babysitters and Kevin may just call in "sick" to work, for lack of other options! I have a meeting in the middle of the day so I won't be able to take the day completely off, though I might be able to head home a little earlier if I'm doing ok on my hours before that... If Michelle (my best friend) watches her I will only go down for the meeting and plan on taking the rest of the day off, don't want to make her work too hard or the baby will come out while Bekah's there! lol! (I'm sure she's hoping!) Honestly I don't know how that girl does it! She chases around a 2 1/2 year old, and a now 1 year old (who's walking now too!) and she's about ready to pop with baby #3, and to top it all off, the poor thing gets anemia during her pregnancies! And she makes it look easy! Gosh, she really must be SuperMom!! She definitely has me impressed!
And last and probably least, I'm SOOO tired of working! I have massive deadlines in the next couple weeks and all I want to do is be home playing with my baby! ugh! The stress is really getting to me, I'm finding myself snacking when I'm not even hungry, I'm not sure but I think I may be getting a slight addiction to food, either that or I'm using food as a crutch, I find myself snacking all the time! its ridiculous and I'm not sure how to stop it! When I'm working I'm almost always snacking on something. ugh! I feel HUGE! I look pregnant again, and as far as I know I'm not, even if I am I'm not far enough to be looking like this! I've put about 15 of the 40lbs I lost after Bekah back on, which is depressing because I was supposed to LOSE another 15 before getting pregnant again to reduce my chances of having GD! Now I need to lose 30! I feel completely disgusting and sadly I am too lazy to exercise to do something about it. I've been talking to Kevin and we're talking about starting a diabetic diet back up to try to get me to cut back on some carbs so hopefully I can lose some weight.
Ok, I'm off to work some more to try and get some done... I'll probably be up till about 5 or 6 and then I'll be back up as close to 9 as I can pull so that I can get more done! Boo hiss! But that's what happens when you have a deadline!

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3 Comments on So many random things running through my head...


mindyisliamsmama! - Monday, 30 Mar
Ah, I know I'm the best sister ;-) I really do love getting to see my niece this much! I love her little smiles :-) Especially the really angelic "innocent" one she gets after we've told her "no!" :-) Lol! I can't wait to see what the pregnancy test says!! :-)
Love you!

AtHomeMama - Monday, 30 Mar
About Wednesday, Colleene wanted to take Hannah to her house for a few days, so I only have Daniel right now if that makes ya feel any better about me watching Bekah for you. :-) I'll let you know how the doctor's apt goes on Tuesday night, and if she still doesn't think we're close there's no reason why I couldn't watch her for the whole day if you have so many deadlines coming up. Especially since Hannah is down at grandma's...I'll just have the two babies, and they're way fun together. :-) Also...you have a phone...if I need you to come home cuz I think I'm in labor, Corvallis really isn't THAT far away...plus I'll have to wait for Dan to get home from work anyways...I don't feel like I'm going to have her soon anyways. My hips hurt, but only when I'm getting up for the first few steps, then I'm fine. :-) Sore hips have nothing to do with contractions unfortunately.

Little Daniel has his one year check-up and shots today, and I think they do a finger stick CBC today too since he's one now. I can stop nursing him now if I want to...crazy huh? He still asks for it in the morning though, so we'll just have to see if the doctors are right and he'll wean himself when my milk changes to colostrum for the new baby??? He can sit facing forward in a toddler car seat in the car now too! We're going to just wait to switch him til after the baby is born though...we'll have to play musical car seats then. :-)

Let me know how your pregnancy test goes, either way! You might be...remember those plums making you gag before you knew about being pregnant with Bekah? And gagging at ICE CREAM??? Are you kidding me? That means you're pregnant and IT'S A BOY this time! :-) Good luck honey! Talk to ya later...

military~mommy - Monday, 30 Mar
Hun, at least you LOST 40 lbs! I lost 20 having Evie, and still need to lose 30 more! I'm sure you are doing great, and I hope you get AF if that is what you want!