27-10-2009 - Updates and stuff

My mood while writing this blog: way too many moods to list

So last Friday was my last appointment. I saw the doctor... it went pretty well, blood pressure was fine, weight gain was 2 lbs so still doing well. Baby girl is active, she said she feels about the right size (didn't actually measure me this time.. weird!). She gave me some stretches to do for my sciatic nerve pain, and told me to stretch more/get my hubby to rub my feet to stop the leg and foot cramps at night, or at least help with them. She told me she wants me to exercise more to help with my blood sugars. I got my H1N1 vaccination. As she was leaving I asked her when I should schedule my last ultrasound and she said "well she seems to be the right size so we don't really need to do that" Then she saw the look on my face and said "but you want to..." and I asked if that was alright and she laughed at me and said yes and wrote up the order, so this Thursday I get to go in and see my second princess one more time before I have her! Yay! So that makes me happy!

I'm super excited for my friend Aimee, she texted me this morning at about 10 am saying she was in labor and on her way to the hospital, so hopefully today, tomorrow if it's a long labor, she should have her little man! Yay!

In our group of friends that makes me next! I still have 6 weeks though, 3 weeks till we're full term, so I'm not in any rush! Plus we still have quite a bit to get done at home before she comes, so definitely not rushing her out just yet! :) Plus I'm sure I'll miss my pregnant belly and feeling her kick in me when she comes! But I am WAY excited to see her! and things are getting closer and closer to ready for her..

I'm SUPER stressed right now...

I'm trying to get things done for this deadline at work and for every step forward I take, there's 2 or 3 steps back... which is frustrating. I expected to be done modeling this morning and only needing to work on extractions and 2d stuff but no, I'm still modeling.

Then we find out today that it doesn't look like we can refinance now because the value of our house seems to have dropped to around $110,000 and we owe around $119,000 on it still so we can't refinance to get a lower rate! Plus the foreclosure rate in our area is too high so they are even less willing to work on it.. not that we are having problems affording it or anything, it's just that we will have a huge balloon payment in a year and a half if we don't get it refinanced... huge to the tune of multiple thousands, probably around $10,000.... we don't have that kind of money! I know I just need to calm down and trust that He will take care of us, He has taken very good care of us so far, I'm sure He won't just leave us!

Also my blood sugars have been a little higher lately.. probably due to the stress, but all that does is make me stress more! Such a vicious cycle! Not that they've been too high.. just a few up near the borderline... like last night we had McDonalds for dinner, I know, not healthy, but I had a grilled chicken sandwich with mayo (no carbs, and I wiped like half of it off, they always put WAY too much on), lettuce (no carbs), tomato (no carbs) and swiss cheese (no carbs), so the only carbs were from the bun, and I had litterally only around 5 fries.. at a little after an hour my sugars were 130 (just need to be below 140), no big deal, higher than I thought it would be since that couldn't have been more than 50 carbs for the bun, if even that much... then I took my blood sugar again an hour later and it was still 130.. what the heck? I mean I realize I wasn't exercising, but how the heck does it not go anywhere?? I had been sipping on some tea, but it didn't have any sugar in it.. it was pomegranate green tea with cinnamon added to it, and I might add that cinnamon is supposed to lower blood sugar (though having some cinnamon tea before bed does help my fasting sugar in the morning)... so I'm just really confused by what my body is doing, and I've found that I really can't fast more than 8 hours or my blood sugar starts climbing too... so frustrating! Which is why the doc told me to exercise more.. but it's hard when you're working late to try and get your hours in! I officially do not have a week without any appointments left in this pregnancy... this week is my last ultrasound, next week is a baby appointment, the next week is Bekah's 18 month check up, then I start my weekly baby appointments till the end of the pregnancy! I can't believe I'm this close to the end, and yet at the same time, it sounds so far off! On the bright side, starting November 16th I'll be working mostly from home... going into the office only once a week to reconnect...

Ok, that's enough of a novel for now! LOL! I hope you all are doing well! Thanks for continuing to read my long pointless blogs!