28-10-2009 - bad dream

My mood while writing this blog: freaked out

So far with this pregnancy have not had any "baby dreams" until last night. With my other 2 i can remember having dreams about what I was having and what they would look like. Last night I woke up with my heart pounding out of my chest and almost unable to breath because of the dream I had!! So here is what i remember from the dream ( i bet it scares you too!!!)

I am at home doing my usual stuff. We are still moving so I am helping the hubby get stuff put where it belongs and carrying boxes that I can lift without hurting myself. Now as I said i went about the day as normal...picked Hayden up from school...helped him with his homework...cooked dinner..couldnt eat it because I was sick to my stomach....I put the kids to bed....took a shower and went to bed myself. (now here is where it gets scary) I got up atleast 3 times to PEE (of course) but its the 3rd time that I went to the bathroom that scared me. Now I felt fine and wasnt having any cramping or anything but as I finished doing my business and went to wipe myself I felt something down there. I thought maybe just some of that icky discharge stuff....I WAS WRONG!! So I wipe and for some reason bring the paper so that I can look at it. To my surprise I say a very small..probably the size of my thumb...BABY!! It was Very noticably a baby..you could make out the head..torso..arms and legs. I started CRYING and screaming for my husband saying "our baby..our baby!! How could this happen!! What did I do wrong?? WHY WHY WHY!!" and thats when I woke up!!

I have NEVER had a dream like that and it really scared me!! I know that i did not want to be pregnant... I did not want anymore kids...BUT I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE THIS BABY!!!!! What could this dream mean??? OH LORD PLEASE LET MY BABY BE OK!!!