09-6-2009 - Back to Week 32

My mood while writing this blog: Indifferent

Well apparently I had a misunderstanding at my doctors office.

I had thought when the ultrasound tech did my ultrasound and told me how I was measuring and gave me an "adjusted" due date that it somehow effected how the doctor kept his records since I don't know exactly when I got pregnant due to irregular periods and them having to date the pregnancy via ultrasound.

Apparently I was wrong, so it looks like I am gonna be pregnant 2 weeks longer than I have been thinking for the past 2 months. Even scarier is that this baby is going to be large.

This effects alot of things since I have a cerclage. It effects when the cerclage can come out, when I can be induced if necessary. Also, we prepaid for a Disney vacation last year before I ever got pregnant (not expecting it of course) and it cannot be refunded. It looks like we are going to take a huge loss on that. I know this is my child and I should not take such a selfish approach but I need to purge and vent.

I am just so indifferent and rapidly growing very bitter towards pregnancy. I want this to be over with so I can move forward with motherhood. I guess one thing is true and that is no matter what happens I just have to deal with it.

God help the first person that says to me "You are STILL pregnant?"

I am going to go put on my big girl panties now.