29-6-2009 - My Selfish Reasons

My mood while writing this blog: Frumpy

It is time for a little honesty.

I have always been the type of woman that was very attentive to her appearance. Most of my life I have made it a point to keep my hair, nails, make up and clothing as neat as possible. I will even go as far as to say I took pride in my appearance. Since I have gotten pregnant I have to admit I have let myself go!

If you have ever heard the saying "You can put lipstick on a pig, but its still a pig" then you know what I am talking about. I feel like its Me vs. Ugly these days. I must admit I am enjoying the fact that the hair stopped growing on my legs since I got pregnant FAR too much.

I am being honest when I say I am very much looking forward to the day that I can look into the mirror and like what I see again. If that sounds vain then IT IS. When I know I look good, I feel good, I have a spring in my step. Its not a good feeling to go out in public and feel like you have to keep your head down and hope to God you don't see anyone that you know.

I might have to put some make up on and do more than put a brush through my hair tomorrow to prove to myself that I can be physically attractive again. I thank God for the fact that he blessed me with a pleasant and outgoing personality because without that I would probably have people throwing stones at me in the streets. LOL ok ok that is a bit harsh.

It is only womanly to WANT to feel sexy and desirable so I take no guilt in my feelings.

Oh KAY. This is enough honesty for one day. I am gonna hush now before I go embarassing myself.