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|25-8-2010 - Stress. Work.
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Hey! How is everyone doing? I'm doing ok, tired! I got a job opportunity working for Family Heritage Life Insurance. Some of you may have heard of them. As of now I am in Dallas training to go out into the field. I've been away from my baby for three whole days :( Jake and I (he is in this also) flew to Dallas on Monday. I loved the flight! It was my first time flying and I'm looking forward to the flight home. So Sunday night I packed from about 11pm til 1am then I showered and straightened my hair which brought me to a bedtime of 2am! Our flight left at 6:45am from Midland. We live about an hour away so I got up at 4:30am so we could get there on time and get through security and whatnot. Thank goodness most people don't choose to fly that early, the airport was pretty empty. We arrived in Dallas at about 8am, our class started at 10am and ended at about 7pm. So you can imagine how tired I was running on only two and a half hours of sleep! These last days have been easier, more sleep is a factor. Being away from my daughter is hard, I miss her soo much! How do you working moms do it?
My mother will be watching Anberlin while I am training and earning money so that I can provide a better future for both her and I. The issue is this, Anberlin is starting to talk which is awesome, however I don't want her calling MY mother Mom, I am her mom. This has always been a fear of mine :( I am so worried that she will get confused between her grandma and her mom.
I really need to move out of the house. My parents are bugging me to no end. I do this wrong. I'm not supposed to do that. Blah blah blah. They try to tell me how to parent MY child. They've raised ten kids but that doesn't give them any right to do whatever they want with my child! What if i don't want her to have soda until she's at least two??? My mom gives her SODA!!! Not just a sip here and there but full out gulps throughout the day. If I dare to mention anything, she right away takes major offense. Grrrrrrrrr. Moving in with Jake isn't an option, he tells me so himself. He just clearly doesn't want me there. Getting married isn't an option either, sadly. I wish I could say that I am a MARRIED teen mom who has a career. I am working towards that goal but the "married" part probably won't be for another five years.
Sorry if this has turned into some kind of a rant, just need to get a couple things off my chest.
So on to the positive! Anberlin has showed signs of walking, she'll hold on to things with one hand and slide/push it around on the hard floor and walk. She points at everything and says, "Oh Wow!" or "Is that?!" (what is that). She loves to flip the light switch off, hasn't mastered the "On" yet though. There are more words she can say, just small ones but words nonetheless. Oh and she calls everything "ball" lol!
Just writing about her makes me tear up :(
Alright ladies I need to wrap up this novel, I have plenty of studying to do!
Have a great night :)
2 Comments on Stress. Work.Str8 As
- Thursday, 26 Aug Congrats on the new career! That is exciting and you are moving forward and bettering yourself..kudos to you ;-) Anberlin will know who momma is..you are the most awesomest person in her life..really! Make a point while you are home to say grandma to when your mom is around. As far as your parents, that is a toughy because they know how to push those buttons! Since she is your mom, you will need to lovingly tell her no soda! She is your child and you appreciate all that she does, but she is yours and you have to make those decisions. I hope everything works out with the housing situation and I pray you makes lots of sales so you can move! Best wishes to you. Pocahontas
- Thursday, 26 Aug First off, let me commend you on taking this step on training and establishing a career path. You are definitely on the right track to make the best future for the both of you. Hopefully your mom will encourage Anberlin to say grandma and not anything else resembling mom. That surely will be reserved for you and even if she gets the word wrong, she most definitely knows who her mom is! I hope there will be a solution for moving into your own space, I completely understand that you need it. Anberlin sounds very sweet and soon you will be home with her again just enjoying her. Good luck with the training! - L