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06-6-2008 - "My Last Minute Thoughts"

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

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Im calling this "My Last Minute Thoughts" ...

I know some would say that its normal to have some kinds of anxiety right before your baby finally arrives but my "Last Minute Thoughts" are driving me crazyyy. For some reason I can not get them out of my head and maybe you could say its normal and everyone goes through it, but do you think it could cause a type of depression if I keep thinkin bout it so much?

1. What If Im Not As Good Of A Mother As I Plan To Be ?

2. What If Having This Baby Ruins My Relationship With My Fiance ?

3. What If He Leaves The Two Of Us Because Its Just To Much To Deal With ?

4. What If Im Truly Just Not Ready To Be A Mom ?

5. What If Me And My Fiance Wouldnt Be Able To Take Care Of The Baby Due To Financial Problems ?

6. What If The Baby [GOD FORBID] Come Out With A Mental Illness And Im Not Able To Take Care Of Him ?

There are many other thoughts I constantly stuble upon but there are just to many to write out ... are these thoughts normal or am I the only one with these thoughts in my head 24/7 ?

when i decided to continue on with this pregnancy I felt as though Im capable of being a mom, and i still do but the thought about not being good enough of a mom for my son makes me question ... I know everyone only wants the best for their children and sure some frist time mommies go through obstacles they never couldve imagined as a mom and mayb I would have to go through such obstacles myself,but my greatest fear is being unable to successfully go through them. I mean are women ever really successfull ? Or do they always find away around them ? As for my relationship with my fiance ... its the best thing ive ever had and hes the best man ive ever met and BOY DOES HE MAKE ME HAPPY ! I doubt he would ever hurt me and our son but sometimes the thought of the pressure of being a father and haveing to provide for a family could be too much for him. Im saying hes the strongest man ive ever met in my life but even the strongest most bravest men get scared about such responcibility & things do happen unexpectedley. Or what if its not the pressure of being a father and its more like ... we just dont find that love for one another anymore. I dont know mayb im just thinkin all these ridiculous things because of hormones and my anxiety about my baby coming really really soon.

&& I LOVE MY SON WITH ALL MY HEART AND I WOULD NEVER EVER REGRET THE CHOICE I MADE WHEN I SAID

" IM KEEPING THIS BABY "

&& IM MADLY INLOVE WITH MY BABYS FATHER AND THAT I WOULD NEVER WANNA TAKE BACK ALSO [THE MAN I CHOSE FOR THE JOB].

Just some thoughts I was going through and as i read over what i just wrote i said to myself ...

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" WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ? "

" GET OVER IT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE FINE ! "

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1 Comments on "My Last Minute Thoughts"


Andrea1222 - Monday, 21 Jul
really, everything is going to be fine..regardless of what your fiance does in the end or anything. Everything about being a mother especailly a new mother is hard except giving love. Of course expect challenges and obsticals with your baby but its soo amazing. its be most rewarding experience and at the same time the hardest. There is nothing harder than being a mom. but everything happens for a reason ( i believe) and regardless of what happens you just need to make the best decisions for you and your baby, thats the most important! good luck and stay positive!