Write a new blog
|19-10-2011 - Ugggh. Could it be?
||My mood while writing this blog:|
I can't believe I am sitting here wondering if I am having another miscarriage - chemical pregnancy.
We were "trying", so it could have happened.
The reason I am thinking it could have happened again is because I started bleeding yesterday and I am talking red blood- and with it - a lot of clots, huge ones. Just like last month when I "passed" the "pregnancy". You see, Sept 12 th I took a test - BFP, and 3 more said the same thing throughout the day. 2 days later, spotting. By that night, I took a cheapie test that already didn't detect the hormone. By just a few days later all tests showed no longer as BFP's. I never went to see my Dr. I figured if I had never tested on that one Monday, I would have never known and I would have just got my "period". I do believe I have had these in the past as well, but did I really just have 2 back to back? What's wrong? If anything?
I did take some tests this month and never saw even a faint positive, but I didn't test all the time and like I said, last month I was only registering as pregnant for a short time, so unless I would have tested on the right days this month, I might not have known. I never felt pregnant though, well, maybe I sorta did, but not like last month. And any "feeling" of being pregnant this month I just chaulked it up to overthinking everything.
Everytime I go to the bathroom, or if I don't make it in time, I feel this gush and it's always been a huge clot mass. It's kind of too bad I don't have assurance of what this is, that way I could go to the Dr and tell him OKAY I was pregnant and lost it two months in a row. But I don't know that. I guess I will see what my next period brings.. I honestly hope I was not pregnant again. I hope that if & when I do get pregnant I won't be so overwhelmed with negative thoughts either. I feel like my negative thoughts can ruin things.
3 Comments on Ugggh. Could it be?RickettsRules
- Thursday, 20 Oct I agree that the heavy bleeding and clots could be because of the 'chemical pregnancy' last month. Horrible how they call it that isn't it? I had the same thing happen when I had my first miscarriage, at around 5 or 6 weeks, so I wasn't very far along at all, but the clots and bleeding went on for almost two months straight, and it took a long time for my period to get back to normal. isisgrl13
- Wednesday, 19 Oct Hi sweetpea!!! i so know what you mean about the negitive thoughts. I hate them they ruin everything!! STOMP DARN THEM....... i think ttc6thbaby has the right ideas:) all my love and do everthing you can to stay positive.... what i do is watch funny tv shows, read funny books and write positive things to my baby....... even if he or she does not exisit yet. crazy yes. lol but for me it beats going mad inside with fear and negitive crapola!! all the best to you and baby dust baby dust baby dust.. hugs ttc6thbaby
- Wednesday, 19 Oct if u werent late, i would say no, just ur body cleaning itself up from last month hunny. BUT i would tell the dr other wise because the more losses the more they look into it and help u to carry to term. Im sorry ur feeling this way, this cycle is ur month!