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11-5-2009 - Mother\'s Day

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

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Mother's Day was very nice for the most part got to spend time with my mom,grandma, and little sister which is always great. I really don't know what I'd do without them honestly they are like sunshine in my life and they don't even know it! My mom bought me a lovely outfit with shoes and earrings n everything so although I look Kind of big in the pics lol I still felt pretty yesterday. I will be posting those pics shortly. I know some girls have asked me to put up a belly pics so I intentionally took those yesterday with my side kick :) lol. Anyway situation with D seems to get better only to get worse we were pretty stable for a little bit but his little problem is trickling down on everything else and now don't even know where we stand. Trying my hardest to not stress and keep my head up because we seem to do this break up to make up thing often but everytime it feels as if it weighs more on my heart. I know he loves me and I for damn sure love him but the problem is affecting him more n well me 2. I saw him for like 5 sec in the morning yesterday where he than starting going crazy looking thru my phone as if looking for an excuse to get upset. He called me a couple times during the day but on the last I guess he got mad I wasn't back ffrom my mother's yet and didn't call or respond to me for the rest of the day. He called at like 11:45(mind you he stayes with me everynight) gets mad I don't pick up cause phone is on silent. And than goes on how he doesn't want to hurt me thats it's better like this and that he's moving back to where his family is on the other end of the the east coast. He's sais this before in anger don't know if to take him seriously but I pretty much fired back extremely aggressively because HONESTLY don't know what else to say or do to stay stable with him. Needless to say his phone's off today and haven't spoken to him since which is extremely strange being that after his outbursts he's usually calling me first thing in the morning. I'm a mix of worried, hurt, and doubtful about how this all will turn out. I think what hurts me more is that his son won't be able to have the family I've been trying so hard to keep together even with all his personal obstacles. This pregnancy has been very stressful for more reasons than one n I guess I just kept the hope alive that everything would turn out fine. Maybe I'm overreacting I don't know maybe this will be like every other time I just hope he's ok and I hope all this back and forth will stop soon no matter the outcome. Because honestly if push comes to shove I'm left at 7 months to deal with this alone because he is too selfish to realize what he's doing than I will move to my mother's when baby is born for some help(which she is dieing for me to do neway) and thats it. I've always been strong and independent I'm sure I'll make it through. It just irks me that he is a good man cooks clean takes care of everything n that this one "issue" is getting in our but mostly his way and that I'm loosing him in the process. Worst part is that he's losing himself in the process I just have to keep praying is all. I Know God is listening I just hope D is too. :( Later Girls

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2 Comments on Mother\'s Day


AllyCat62683 - Monday, 18 May
Im sorry to hear of your relationship issues. I go through the same type of break up make up crap on a weekly basis. It is sad that these men have these "issues" and cannot just get it together at least for the kids sake. I wish you the best of luck with D and hope all works out for you.

Diegirl - Monday, 11 May
I'm sorry to read of your struggles with D. I hope it works out.