18-3-2012 - Moving on

My mood while writing this blog: Optimistic

I had my scan today after the mc to make sure my body was back to normal.

It was more emotional than I thought. I mean I've been okay for the last week or so and have been feeling pretty good but seeing thabig fat nothing on the ultrasound screen was a bit final. The lady was super nice though and made me feel better and talked me through the whole process.

After leaving the scan I feel much better. At least now I know it's over and we can move on and start trying now - she even said it looks like I'm ovulating already!

I have to think of it like this - there was something wrong with my baby to make it pass away at 6 weeks. So when I do become pregnant again that baby will be so extra loved bc if this baby did stick then the baby that we will eventually have would never have been. I have to believe that everything happens for a reason and that wasnt the baby that was meant to be a part of our family.

I just hope I never have to go through that again because as optimistic as I am now I dont think I'd be in the same mood if it happened again.

RIP baby xx I'll think of you always xx