19-11-2008 - Just Ramblin

My mood while writing this blog: Sleep, but Blessed!

Well I am 30 weeks...HURRAH!! Time is really flying!! I never actually thought that I make it this far along. By the grace of God, I have and I am blessed and thankful! I know that I will not feel complete until, I am holding her in my arms, but the truth of the matter is that I am getting more anxious to see her but @ the same time, I don't know if I am ready to share her with the outside world because right now, she is my lil secret and only she and I knows what's going on with her. I know that may sound a little weird, but it's how I feel. I have to start to do her side of my bedroom where she'll be sleeping and stuff because I haven't done anything as of yet and I know that I don't have that long. I am TIRED these days I stay tired, and feel lack of energy, but I allow myself to be lazy because, I know in the future I will not have that luxury. My baby shower is the 6th of next month and it has been one toss up after another. Lamar and I still go through what we go through! Sometimes I worry about our daughter when it comes to having us as parents, but then I feel like this shoot she'll be a fighter, and with the grace of God, she'll be able to make it through any and all!! However, I can tell she's getting bigger because, I feel her in places, I haven't before, and she gets the hiccups now...LOL Muffin Girl is still a big fan of orange juice and sweets because soon as I eat or drink any of it she starts moving all around. I love it!! I know what her names will be but I don't know which will be her first and her middle. I came up with one name, and Lamar came up with one, and we both agree on her name, so there's no argument there! Surprised the both of us! I was thinking about taking a refresher course of Lamaze classes next month, but we'll see. I am on a mission to find Pak and play sheets for her pak and play and shoes for my fat feet for the baby shower...OY!! My next appointment is Monday...YAY i get to hear her heartbeat again which is music to my ears!! I love my Muffin Girl!