16-7-2008 - Off Cycle

My mood while writing this blog: Indifferent

This has been an off cycle all the way around. My moods have been up and down from excited to depressed. We certainly didn't BD enough this cycle by any means, and to make matters worse, I'm not even really sure of my O date. I agree with FF I think, but I did have another temp rise a few days later so we'll see what happens I suppose. I'm only 5dpo (at the most) and already coming up with IPS, but I know its all in my head. I'm already moving on to next month in my mind. I wanted nothing more than to give DH a BFP for his Birthday, but I'm pretty sure that isn't going to happen. I've decided that next month I'm throwing the thermometer out the windo and just going with things. We are going to BD every other day starting on CD8 fior 2 weeks. I figure we'll have our bases covered that way. I tried doing that this cycle without telling DH and well it kinda blew up in my face. I ended up being even more stressed out. I figure a few months of that should work and if not, by then we'll have been trying for a year and it will be time to see the dr anyway.

I'm a little scared about next month cause I will most likely either get a BFP right before our angel's due date, or I'll have AF and that is just a terrible reminder of what happened. Surprisingly I should be due to test on my due date, but I won't be. A BFN would just be too hard to handle. I would feel so much relief if I got a BFP this month!