07-4-2009 - She is here again!

My mood while writing this blog: Angry

This month wasn't a good month either! This is really getting me down! My husband thinks it should be so easy because it happened so fast the last time but I told him it doesn't always work like that! UGH! Here is 2nd month of trying journal:

Mar. 7th~ CD 1~ Started. I hate AF!

Mar. 8th~ CD 2~ Cramping and blah!

Mar. 9th~ CD 3~ Same ol same ol

Mar.10th~ CD 4~ Another day! Really hoping this is the month! I want to have a baby close to my daughters age so they can grow up close to eachother and be there for eachother! I was an only child and I didn't like it at all! I pray that God will bless us with another baby shortly!

Mar. 11th~ CD 5~ Lightening up today! About two more days and she should be gone, hopefully for a long long time!!! I have been trying to keep myself busy and not think about it although it's always there in the back of my mind! My hubby and I are making a mosaic table. We are into home projects and are alwyas thinking up new things to do.... Well off to another day at work!

Mar. 12th~ CD6~ Just spotting left today. Probably will continue until tomorrow! Ugh! This whole process takes forever!!!!! I just wish I was 6 months pregnant already! I fear that it will never happen and I keep dreaming about this stuff everynight even though I am trying to NOT think about it all the time!

Mar. 13th~CD7~ Another Friday the 13th!!!! Lets hope it's AF's last day! Feeling good. DH and I really hope this is our month so we can get a BFP on Easter!!!!!!

Mar. 14th~CD8~ Just spotting today, Going to a baby shower for the girl who through my baby shower!

Mar. 15th~ CD9~ Started BDing. Not temping this time. Just going to BD around the days I am supposed to ovulate and not stress!

Mar. 16th~CD10~ Arya had her 1 yr appt this morning! She is 21 lbs and 31 in long! 60th % for everything! Very good! More BDing!

Mar.17th~CD11~ HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!!

More BDing~ We are going to BD till Thursday, then take a break on Friday, then BD all day Saturday!!! My back has been killing me all week and I have been feeling so tired and nauseous! You would think I was pregnant already but no! It's allergies messing me up! Fertile time is NOW~~~

Mar. 18th~ CD 12~ BD'd again... Just waiting for this weekend! I am low on Potassium right now and my eye keeps twiching. I have been having an upset stomach as well.

Mar. 19th~CD 13~ Supposed to ovulate Saturday! I haven't tracked my temps or used OPK's this time! It has really helped me not obsess (as much) over everything. No cramping yet. Today I feel very good. BD'd last night and this morning. Will do once more tonight and then skip tomorrow and BD all day Saturday! Used Mucinex and I think I can tell the difference. I will keep using it till Sunday. I am taking prenatels tonight and drinking grapefruit juice. Maybe taking an asprin too!

Mar. 20th~CD 14~ Ovulation anywhere between now and tomorrow night! YAY! Had a little bit of red lastnight when I wiped but it disappeared. Same thing happened on the same cycle day last month.Back hurts today and having alot of gas and tummy troubles. BD'd lastnight! Won't do it today but tomorrow we will BD multiple times. I don't have pain on one side this time it's both sides. Weird. So I don't know yet where I'm ovulating from. Monday will be in the 2WW!!!! BABY DUST! STICKY STICKY BABY DUST! ST. GERARD YOU HAVE ALWAYS DONE GODS WILL AND PLEASED HIM. PLEASE INTERCEDE IN PRAYER WITH ME SO THAT I MAY BE A VESSEL FOR LIFE AND BEAR GOOD CHRISTIAN CHILDREN THAT WILL PLEASE GOD AND GIVE MY HUSBAND MANY CHILDREN! AMEN

2WW

Mar.21st~ CD15~ I think I def. ovulated today. felt twinges on left side and slightly cramping.

Mar. 22nd~CD 16~ 1 DPO nothing new same as yesterday.

Mar. 23rd~ CD 17~ 2 DPO FEELING GOOD TODAY. NO PAINS OR POKES

Mar. 24th~ CD 18~ 3 DPO I think... lol! I feel so much more relaxed this month not charting or worrying about every little bump. I am getting twinges like I did last month and last night I felt nauseous. I have come to realize I feel this every month so I'm not even going to start looking for symptoms till the end of next week! Last night I had a slight bit of red when I wiped. Don't know what that's about. Also I don't really feel like eating anything. Food is blah right now and not because of pregnancy.

Mar. 25th~CD 19~ 4DPO Sore throat this morning! Other then that nothing out of the ordinary! Cant tell what my CM is like bc of BDing with DH.

Mar. 26th~ CD 20~ 5 DPO Absolutely nothing much except mild cramps!!!!!

Mar. 27th~ CD 21~ 6 DPO Nothing today! Don't feel preggo at all! I have heartburn.... I wish it would happen soon! Cramping very minor! Neg HPT...Had to try!

Mar. 28th~ CD 22~ 7 DPO Just little cramps

Mar. 29th~ CD 23~ 8 DPO BLAH

Mar. 30th~ CD 24~ 9 DPO~ BFN! Nothing new feeling nothing! I don't think I'm prego this month either!!!!!! St Gerard, Mother Mary, St. Joseph, Lord Jesus please bless Adam and I with a baby! AMEN

Mar. 31st~ CD 25~ 10 DPO~ Don't feel a thing! Very sad! I was hoping for an Easter surprise! :( Waiting for AF in 4 days and buying preseed!

Apr. 1st~ CD 26~ 11 DPO Don't feel anything again! Sometimes I have high hopes but mostly just feel negative! I trust in God though and He will give us our second miracle at the right time! Had a moment of nausea...could be from all the BS here at work!

Apr.2nd~ CD27~ 12 DPO Work is really pissing me off! ANYWAYS~ I still don't feel pregnant. We will see in 2 DAYS!

Apr. 3rd~ CD28~ 13DPO AF should show her ugly face tomorrow! I got a BFN today. I almost had hope this month but I am learning to never get my hopes up! EVER! Oh well! On to month 3 of TTC! Lord be with me!

Apr. 4th~ CD29~14DPO Nothing but cramps and sore boobs today! AF should be here tonight or in the morning.

Apr. 5th~CD 30~ 15 DPO Feel slight cramps and sore BB's feels like AF is coming! If she is I hope she hurries or stays away for a LONG time!!!!!

Apr. 6th~ CD 31~ 16DPO Having lots more cramps today! What is going on? On Friday I had a BFN! I hope I am prego but we will see in a few days! I am having a headache today! Thought AF was coming but went to the restroom and nothing. Now I am a little sore in that area for some reason.

Apr. 7th~ CD 32~ 17DPO Feels like a normal day... No AF no BFP no cramps..... HMMMM?....She's here! Damn she is sneaky!!!!!!