09-10-2008 - 33 week appt..

My mood while writing this blog: conflicted

Went and saw my OB today. The babies look good. BP was good. Everything is good.

Except.

Last week my OB kind of hinted around the fact that I might have to have a C section, based on the babies' size and position (my sassy children don't want to be head down together!) He said that we would take another look this week between my appt today and my U/S tomorrow and he would tell me what he thought.

Well, today he told me that he really feels that the best course of action for us is for me to have a C section. My son has turned *again* and is breech, and my daughter did a half turn and is now transverse. Plus the babies are big, they've been measure in the 90+ percentile for our whole pregnancy. My OB is worried that I will have difficulties with a vaginal delivery, and even worse that the babies might be in danger...

Now if it's a question of my babies' possibly being in danger, there is no choice for me. I want what's best for them! I want to bring them home,. I want them to be healthy babies. I want what's best for them...

But I'm still sad that I won't get to have them vaginally...I've had this vision of my labor (which I'm sure is totally unrealistic and probably much more glamourous and easy than actual labor is) which included a fair amount of pain, sweating, swearing and pushing...and I am kind of disappointed that I wont get to experience that...it's silly, I know, but that's how I feel.

However, I had to put things in perspective. If throughout the course of this pregnancy the only unexpexted thing that has happened (aside from finding out we were having twins!)is that I have to have a c-section, then you know what? I'm happy. There are so many things that could have happened, so many problems that we could have encountered, that I feel so blessed that our pregnancy has been as uneventful as it has been.

So if the worse thing I can say about this whole pregnancy is that I don't get to experience an episiotomy first hand then so be it. I will be happy to say it.