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20-4-2009 - 31 weeks

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

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wow it's been 3 weeks since i wrote something.. didn't seem like that long ago.. ( Good sign time is moving quickly).

Been having a unhealthy amount of anxeity lately.. getting panic attacks all the time.. it's horrible.. I can't tell my midwife either cause when i mentionned it once she got really concerned about a home birth.. I'm pregnant, hormonal and have no idea where i'll be in 6 months.. I want to fix up everything.. nest essentially and i can't and it's making me crazy i have no control over the next 6 months. It's alot to explain so i wont bore everyone with it.. but it's complicated and i want a solution no one can give me. I tend to freak out over super small things.. and the big things well they are easier to deal with.

I might have finished work a little earlier then i thought. They have 5th disease going around the Daycare. No one wants to tell me if i'm safe to work or not just keep reading things off the net.. In otherwords no one wants to take responsibility, This also makes me Crazy although no working today is kinda nice being a monday.., hopefully my blood test will come back tomorrow and i can speak to my midwife and figure out if i can go back or not. i only have this week and next anyways..

Really getting anxious for the end of this. Feeling soo low and lonely these days though..

After my last week of chocolate overdosing i've had to cut it off completely.. seriously a small piece of chocolate makes me feel sick but i keep eating it. it's horrible.. I' mnot eating well these days at all.. I have no want to eat.. i only eat because my body gets all panic and dizzy if i don't. Thats how i know it's time to eat when i get disoriented and want to black out.

Haha i'm watching baby story or something simialr.. this lady just delivered and all she said after was " WOW i feel soo much better" lol.. like she just too a big poo and relieved constipation

Weekend was good i forced myself out both Saturday and Sunday.. I went to a Swing Lounge.. The music was to die for.. wow.. hArd to get around a crowd with a belly though. good thing i only used the washroom once.. and Sunday i went for Hot Pot with my whitewash asian friends and me and the chinese washed white guy.. lol.. We certainly are the bunch.. hot pot was pretty good though.. was soo full.. Seriously i can't do big meals anymore.. my tummy gets too stretched the skin almost hurts!.. i think baby shrunk my stomach a little and there just isn't room to expand like it used to.

Bought some more pregnancy clothes i think i have enough now.. Although i wore my white shirt i just bought to hot pot and stained it .. DAMMIT.. i have it soaking..again ,, was soaking when i got home but my mom decided it was time to start to wash..arg.. so i had to restart.

Everyone has been commenting my hair looks great.. it's funny caus ei'm always complaining how horrible my 3 inch long roots are.. ok it's not as obvious as before but i don't like it.. Maybe my hair is getting that pregnancy gloss? really weird.

Got a baby gift yesterday it was Licensed Hockey clothes. heeh i'm a Toronto Maple Leaf fan.. No i don't have hope of them being good it's a patriotic thing.. I love the sport more then anything.. Big Hockey and Ringette Fan.

Ok todays mission.. Take Belly picture... Stop procrasinating!

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3 Comments on 31 weeks


LouOZ - Monday, 20 Apr
You should relax!! I get anxiety and panic attacks also and before i used to just deal with it and take on the things that cause it at the same time. Now, if something is making me feel anxious i simply put it off for a while or dont do it at all. i put down a deposit for a house on friday night, i was super stressed and anxious about it all so i pulled out and now im fine. i'm not going to buy until the baby is born and im settled and i feel better about doing it.
I have worked out that if im not making my brain tick over with all the things that are stressful in life then im fine. I just take everything as it comes.


jumpingbean - Monday, 20 Apr
With working in the daycare I know a lot about these diseases as well. Fifth disease is very contagious. Not sure what blood test you had done but if they were testing to see if you are immune to it that takes 2 weeks to get the results back. There has only been a few cases 1-50 where the baby is still born because of the disease. If you ask me still too high a number. Take care and do what you feel is best for you and the baby. Don't worry about what others say. I've had to do that recently.

Christine G - Monday, 20 Apr
That's alright I'm a Canadian's fan and have been for a long time but I have no hope that they'll win the cup this year hehe