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| 21-7-2009 - lists |
My mood while writing this blog: Ok |
THIS IS A LIST OF EVERYTHING DRIVING ME CRAZY RIGHT NOW
- Husband jumped on the band wagon of sitting around the dinner table insulting and putting me down
- NO one except my 10 year old daughter from time to time.. helps me with this baby.. and sometimes i need help
- I'm soo extreemly lonely .. trying to find people, since family is too busy taking care of my husband
-Family taking care of my husband instead of me
- Husband knows nothing about taking care of a baby and doesn't pay attention at all so he can learn, expects me to give me a play by play when i need anything.
-My brakes are leaking fluid
- My mom didn't pull up in the driveway so i had to park on the rd.. Real nice ,. hope i don't get a ticket.
-Sleeping by myself every night dispite inviting my husband back into the room
-baby is crying in the evenings for no apparent reason
- Having to keep this happy face on for everyone around me, eventhough i'm soo bloody depressed
- Many people asking me if i find it weird that my baby looks asian and people will think she isn't mine.. ( OMG i can't think of anything worst to say to someone !!)
Things that please me right now...
- when baby is happy or sleeping
- Leonard cohen
- showers or baths
- Hanging out with my eldest daughter
I hate to say it.. But i almost don't want to breastfeed anymore.. I just want to run away from everything.. Sometimes i day dream.. i just disappear from everything.. What i wouldn't do for a crutch.. someone.. it's amazing what one little lift can do and how far you can sink without it.
2 Comments on listsjumpingbean -
Wednesday, 22 Jul anytime that you need to get out and have someone else help out let me know. We live so close to each other that , if it's ever nice out, we could take the kids to the lake and have a picnic, or if you need a few hours to sleep or get things done around the house, or enjoy time alone with the older one, I could take the baby. kelly5150rn -
Wednesday, 22 Jul I just want to give you a little encouragement. Please stay strong & better days will come. God is with you