03-4-2009 - I'm feelin Really Frickin Happy--I got me a date

My mood while writing this blog: Can\'t touch this

Okay....So my good feelings began on Wednesday...but for you all that don't know...my childs father did a 180 on me...and really hadn't been there for me...leaving me sad at times....

But anyway, on Wednesday, my sister and I were headed to session one of the preparing for parenthood class and as we were leaving I noticed a note on my windsheild....I'm thinking I hadn't did anything to anyone...who has an issue? So I read it and its from an ex-boyfriend that I had lost touch with. We dated in 2007 up until I went on tour with Blues Singers...Well we had a good relationship...but he had a serious ego/arrogant problem...thinking he can get any girl he want blah blah blah...so I had to show him how it was done and left his ass...I said its gonna be exclusive or you can go on...he was use to chics that would stay no matter what...now we did love each other...but I wasn't gonna let him get away with dirt....but anyway back to now...I pick up the note and call him...I really couldn;'t beleive he looked for me...I moved since he last seen me...same area tho...

So First thing out his mouth is that it was put on his heart to come and find me...that he really did love me and it never went away and he want me to be his wife oneday....Now he never talked like this before...so i ask...is this a April Fools Joke or something...(I think I ended up asking him that about 3 more times)...so anyway he was like...I got to see you...I'm not that far...so I had to tell him I was preggo and everything...he said that hurt but he didn't care...so he ended up meeting me at where they held the class...When he first saw me he said you are still beautiful!!! I just wanted to cry....I didn't want him to see me like that my hair was looking bad...my cheeks look like I been storing nuts all winter and I knew that is what he wasn't use to....But guess what....he said lets not be late...he stayed at the parenting class with me the whole time...even held my hand...I was just shocked I couldn't beleeive it...So the class is over and we stood outside and talked for about 30 more minutes....we get in the car he calls me right up..

he proclaims he don't want to ever lose me again...but get this...he says he want me to give my baby father a chance when my son gets here...but if he don't do right...we getting married by the end of the year...Once again...I'm like this is one hell-of-a April Fools joke....but he say no sweetie...you know me..I swear its God...he been looking for me for months...but everytime he came down he could never see my car...(keep in mind he live about 35-40 minutes away)

He's suppose to come back down today and tomorrow so we can hang out and go out to eat movie or whatever i want to do...Ladies...I haven't felt this special and happy in so long...I actually feel out of place....like I don't know what to do...I was once a swaggerific model chic....and now I been in new mommy zone...So I tell him thank you but I got to take it slow with you I been thru enough hurt with my son's father and so on...So he says I got alot of sisters and I have seen it all...I just want to make you happy, you don't deserve to go through this alone...Man I was ready to break down again...but i held it in...I think my baby could feel my energy...cause I swear he was break dancing and pop lockin in there :-)

I know this alot but I just had to share my joy...