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|27-2-2010 - un-necessary, uncalled for jealousy...WHY!!!!
||My mood while writing this blog:|
OH MY GOD...I actually hate myself right at this particular moment in time and feel like the worlds worst best friend!!!!
have just been on facebook briefly and was shocked to discover my best mate has gotten engaged...i should be over the moon for her but i'm not and i really am hating myself or it!
i don't know if its because she hasn't told me herself or not or because my other half is the most unromantic person in the world and isn't likely to propose any time soon although he does joke about it but i'm just feeling really down about it.
my other half once spoke about us getting married but we had been together less than a year and i kinda freaked out especially as i have been married before and it went down hill at a rather fast pace and ended in divorce but i've been secretly hoping he will ask again eventually :)
i just want to happy for my best mate...GGGRRRRRR i'm blaming this on the hormones, i'm not normally a jealous person!!!!!
P.S...feel free to hate me as much as i hate myself!
2 Comments on un-necessary, uncalled for jealousy...WHY!!!!reila
- Saturday, 27 Feb Well, hun maybe your guy wants to, but remembers how you freaked out and rather scared and freaked out himself to ask. I think bringing up "Hey remember that time I freaked out on you because you brought up marriage.." and you know explain your feelings and why you reacted that one day. And tell him you hope one day only when he's ready that he will ask you again or propose to you. So at least he knows and its out in the open. And he'll know for sure thats what you want. Men do not get our hints or read our minds haha. I think what you are going through is quite normal. However I think you should be the better person and congratulate her anyways. She might of been so caught up and family asking her plans and whatnot that she hadn't gotten the chance. I know when I hear someone is having a baby or engaged I get a bit jealous too, but I know I will someday have another baby and my man will propose to me on his own time. Its better that way anyways. I don't want to get married because everyone else is or anything like that. I want him to marry me because thats what he wants and I want. Hope that makes you feel slightly better. I hope things turn out the way you want them and I hope you feel better. I understand exactly how you feel and its not fun and makes me feel guilty when I should feel happy. =] October-Blessing
- Saturday, 27 Feb lol thats a perfectly normal human emotion and just because ur jealous and wish it was u engaged dosnt mean that u dont love her and that ur not happy for her..but yea wat kinda bestfriend dosnt tell u herself..u had 2 find ou on facebook??? lol