28-10-2008 - Lifes ups and downs

My mood while writing this blog: ok

07:47am - Today i think I am doing ok for the first time in 4 days. Everyday seemed to have brought me something new, Saturday I spent the entire day sleeping waking up in regular intervals... Sunday was my birthday but I felt so sick, I couldnt concentrate on the day, Monday wasnt any better, it sucked even more, so I decided I am not going to work and spoil my day further, I will stay home and take care of myself, which I ended up going to the bank and then almost fainting. Tuesday was better, but just as I thought my day was going good my inlaws - who never seem to amaize me anymore - decided that I should be topic of discussion, and I could hear them out of the next room, I just sat there and listened to the crap they were making up in their heads and I started crying, not because they were hurting me with what they were saying, but because I didnt have the guts to go and confront them... it fraustrated me so much.

But then through all that and the crying my baby was moving all the time, maybe telling me that everything was gonna be ok :-( I hate the fact that I stay so far from my parents and I cant see them whenever I want to, I really needed someone to stand up for me yesterday but there was no-one, my husband wasnt home from work yet and I had to struggle to keep myself from making myself sick, but then again they dont talk about me when my husband is there.

So today Wednesday - 29th October 2008 - I think I feel better , I will have to see how the day goes.