08-1-2009 - I just can't wait

My mood while writing this blog: Dreamy

07:54am - Cold and Rainy in CT today....

Hello ladies

Lastnight I was sitting and just watching how my baby was moving about in my tummy and how my tummy was changing shape with every move... and the more Baby moved the more I became excited about the future, It seems unreal to see your tummy move but you doing nothing and you cant do anything to stop it, I think I will miss this the most afterwards, I think I will just expect it to happen, baby was active all day yesterday untill the evening... and then this morning she was moving about again, both myself and my husband stoped and starred at the movements... so I just cant help but be impatient... I no I shouldnt be like this, because shes still got a whole lot of growing to do inside mommy's tummy, but I just wish I could see her , I no I'm going to spend hours starring at her and have a total "pinch me" moment after shes born.

I think even though I am feeling so sick and so unhappy sometimes, I no I will look back at this someday and go "hey, I accually went through that", and I will look at my daughter and I will be filled with such unconditional Love, as I am already feeling for her... there is really nothing compared to the ups and downs that pregnancy brings, sometimes the downs over shadow the ups and I feel like I cant handle this, but what is left to do but just take it one step at a time.

I think God wouldve never gave me this task if he thought I was unfit for it, so since he is trusting me so much with someone elses life, I will give it my all and try and be the best mom I can be.

I just cant wait :-)

Cooper