03-2-2010 - Update

My mood while writing this blog: fine

Well it's been a while since i have updated so here goes!

I have been feeling like i'm on a roller coaster lately, this TTC business can really stress a girl out,

I have been feeling inadequate, i sort of feel like this is not going to happen, and worst i feel like my body is letting me down, my womb aches for a baby, it has never felt so empty...

I have been trying to get things rolling i got my hormone levels checked, hubbys swimmers checked, had a lapascopy and everything is fine, everything is working and this should be happening, I have been thinking that my eggs are no good. And i asked my obyn if he would put me on clomid to get the ball rolling, he said no, that i have to wait another 6 mths and go for IVF (that pissed me off) then i went to the doctor and asked him to give me clomid and he said he isn't allowed to prescribe it......

Well ive come to a point i need a new game plan, I have started feeling things will get better, i have started temping which is good, ive been Oing on cd13 cycles about 25 days long, which is a big improvement from 21-23 day cycles, i feel my body is maybe going to be normal soon, also i have started cupping which is very exciting, the guy looked into my eyes and said he can fix me, and i have heard of a lot of people he has helped get pregnant, so i'm finding hope in that, but i'm black and blue from it lol the things we do....

So i'm having a bit of a feeling that not this cycle or next but the one after is the one i will get my bfp, don't know why just a gut feeling, so a toast to me, here is to that cycle lol,

hope all you lovely ladies are well, bye for now

btw i know i started by saying i feel its never going to happen and by the end of the blog i say i feel like it is, but i was just sort of saying how i have been feeling and now how i'm feeling a present... a bit confusing i know lol