16-7-2009 - U/S tomorrow

My mood while writing this blog: Excited and nervous

So tomorrow is my first U/S and I am excited but also sooo nervous. I keep thinking that there gonna tell me that somethings wrong or there's no baby. I know I shouldn't be thinking like this. I mean, I'm well overdue for my period (it was due on June 23rd) and there's no spotting or anything to tell me that there would be something wrong but I'm just soo worried. I asked my hubby's step mom to come with us as I don't speak to my mother so there's no chance that my mother will be there and my hubby's step mom has been there for me from the beginning. (when I had the miscarriage in April) She's been more of a mother to me then my own mother. I haven't told my hubby that I'm nervous cause he doesn't understand. All he'll say is "Why do you worry sooo much? The HPT's said you were pregnant and so did the doctor so why are you putting yourself through this stress?" He doesn't understand how it feels to have something, a human, growing inside of you and then all of a sudden it's not there anymore. I just wish he would understand a bit more then he does.

I am also impatient to get this tri mester over with. I am sooo tired of being tired. As I type this, I am sitting at my desk at work almost ready to doze off. I have never been soo tired soo much in my life. I don't like it at all. Normally, I like to be out doing stuff but now all I can think about is going home to my bed. I can actually see my bed in my head and let me tell you, it looks sooo comfy and inviting even though it's not made as I was too lazy when I got up at 6am this morning. lol I just wanna curl up and fall asleep while watching Dr. Phil. (Yes, I love Dr. Phil lol)

Anyways, I'm gonna try and keep myself awake and I'm gonna try and keep my mind off the negative and keep a positive look towards the ultra sound tomorrow. If everything goes well and I can get a pic of the baby, I will try and post it on Monday from work as I don't have a scanner at home.

Xoxoxoxoxoxox