29-7-2009 - Just some thoughts

My mood while writing this blog: Curious and nervous

So I have my first OB appointment on August 5th (next week). What happens at this appointment? What can I expect? I know she will schedule me for the IPS testing around week 12 or 13 but not sure what's going to happen on the 5th. I'll be 10 weeks by then.

I'm anxious to get on with this pregnancy. I want to hurry it up to the point where I feel and look pregnant and not look fat. I am soo bloated that I don't feel that great about myself. I use to always do my make-up nice and straighten my hair and look somewhat presentable but for the past couple weeks, I haven't felt like doing any of that. I do my make-up because I will not go out without it but now I just do a bit of eyeliner and foundation, that's it. As per clothes, I've almost grown completely out of my favorite clothes. Gonna go to this maternity store this weekend with the hubby and see if I can pick some stuff up. Maybe that will make me feel better.

I went to Babies R Us the other day and was looking around at the stuff and wanted to buy all of it. LOL I'm gonna start my baby registry at the start of September as my baby shower is on October 24th. I am also soooo excited for that. My bestest friend in the world is throwing it for me. She's also going to be the godmother. I am the godmother of her 13 year old daughter and I love her to death. I hope that I will be able to find out what we're having before we send out the invites or we're just going to have a nutral baby shower.

I am feeling a little depressed today. I was talking to Derek about my mom. I haven't spoken to her since May 25th as she was causing me alot of stress because I moved out. I blame her for the miscarriage I had. She put sooo much stress on me and didn't care about my health or the babies health. Even though she treated me pretty badly, I do really miss her and hope that she comes to her senses before the baby is born. I really want her to be apart of her grandchilds life but I can't force her if she really doesn't want to be.

Oh well, I guess I'll just deal with things as they come and not worry too much. Easier said then done, that's for sure.