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| 14-1-2011 - My Pregnancy History |
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So I don't know what happened to my very first blog about my IVF and pregnancy. So I'm going to try to rewrite a new one.
Let me first say that Della is doing great and continues to thrive every day. My husband and I have decided not to have anymore unless it just happens of coarse. But that is very unlikely. We may adopt one day but that is also not in our plans right now.
I got pregnant when I was 20 years old for the first time. I had just started college and was with my first husband in our new apartment. I was over joyed about it. I could not have been more happy but scared at the same time. The first month was okay but at 5 weeks I started bleeding. I went to the hospital and found out that I miscarried. I was heart broken. Because I was in college I decided to go on the shot. I had a lot of problems with it. I would get the shot and not have my period for a month and then get it for 2 months straight. This went on for 9 while on the shot. It drove me nuts so I went off of it. Then started bleeding for every other week for almost 4 years straight.
Finally I got a new doctor. By this time I had graduated college. He put me on clomid to help me get my regular cycle back and I was to be married soon so if we got pregnant it would not be a bad thing. Well it worked and I got pregnant. I found out on a Wednesday and we were getting married on Saturday. By that following Friday I became very ill and got really bad cramps and wound up in the hospital. The U/S showed not heartbeat. A blood test again 2 days later confirmed I had lost the baby. It killed me. I was determined. 7 months later I found yet a new doctor who again gave me clomid to stimulate my ovulation. This time I wound up with Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome. I also wound up with cysts on my overies. Painful. My doctor told me I would never be able to be a candidate for IVF because this OHS was so bad. But you have to understand that this was almost 10 years ago. The options for IVF fertility drugs were minimal.
Soon after I found out I was pregnant again. The doctor took me right in. He wanted to make sure everything was ok after my hyperstimulation. Well his concerns were well founded. I was sent across the street for emergency surgery. I was almost 12 weeks pregnant and the pregnancy was in my fallopian tube. I was internally bleeding and they had to remove the pregnancy and stop the bleeding. They spared my tube but my baby was taken from me. I heeled but my heart was broken.
About 6 weeks later I found out I was pregnant yet again. Over joyed yet again but terrified. I started bleeding again but my hormone levels went up A LOT. Then I passed a clot the size of the palm of your hand. I went right in for an U/S and an exam and was dilated. It was the placenta I passed.
Now my doctor is very concerned. He sent me for all kinds of testing. You name it he tested me. We got a lot of answers but by this time I was done trying.
The testing revealed that I had very low progesterone and antiphospholipid antibody syndrome. My body was rejecting my embryos. Attacking them. If I were to try again I would need 1 baby aspirin, shots of daily heparin and progesterone suppositories. So much for me to handle. I needed a break. My body had been through so much.
After a while I started considering trying again, but my husband at the time and I did not get along. We were not even friends. We disagreed on everything. He wanted a family but the only way I could conceive was with clomid but he did not want anymore fertility treatments. We disagreed on everything. I eventually decided I did not want to deal with his pressures anymore so I divorced.
One year went by and I met my husband now. We hit it off and I feel as though he's my soul mate. He is such a wonderful man. We dated for almost a year and had the time of our lives over our first summer. Traveling, fishing, camping, the great outdoors, lots of exercise. It was great. I was the fittest I had ever been.
In June of 2006 I went in for my normal 1 year exam. And bang the doctor says congrats your pregnant. WHAT?! Sorry but Ron and I were using the pull out method and with my fertility issues who would have ever thought. Started all those meds I needed to stay pregnant and was sent home on strict bed rest. We stopped started volunteering in our town to keep time passing. It was nice to finally be in love and expecting our first baby together. He would be such a great father. It was a special time for us. Then a few weeks went by and I felt cramps then started to pass dry brown blood. They took my hormone levels and they had dropped yet again. My doctor said well this could just be a defected embryo that could not make it. As heartbreaking as it was I had no choice but to except it. They also told me that I had cancer cells that needed to be removed from my cervix. So I had them removed in the beginning of September 2006. We went about enjoying the rest of our summer and planned on getting married. I had been having cramps and bleeding on and off and the doctors who were on call told me that it's just my body getting rid of the pregnancy. They were pretty bad cramps and my period would not regulate.
Then in October 2007 I woke up in the middle of the night in bad pain all over my body. I felt my body going into shock. I needed to get to the ER. In our way there our tire popped right outside the fire station. My husband ran in and got the EMS. They took over and took me to the hospital. I got there and they said I was pregnant and bleeding internally. They had to take me right in for emergency surgery again. They suspected another ectopic pregnancy. I woke up and sure enough they took my baby and my left tube. My right tube is blocked and scared from my first tubal pregnancy. No chance of ever having a baby now. I was hopeless, depressed.
I decided to spoil me for a little while. Take care of me and I needed to let me heal. What can I do now. All I ever wanted was to be a mother. I didn't even feel like a woman anymore.
Well all at the same time we worked really hard to save, save, and save. And then we were very lucky in December 2008. We had enough to get our family started though a reputable fertility clinic. My husband won a little money in the lottery. With the amount we had already saved and the amount he had won was just enough to get us started.
January 8 2009 we went in for our consult and with my history they wanted to start out with IVF. With that said we started right away with all the injections and everything. The egg withdrawal was set for Feb 20th. They got 7 eggs that were good. At 10 something in the morning they were implanted with my hubbys you know. 3 embryos took and reimplanted on Feb 23.
Our first u/s was at 2 weeks because I had gotten Ovarian Hyper-stimulation syndrome and had fluid in my abdomen. It showed that there were 3 little embryos in there. At our second and third u/s it showed that there was only one baby with a heartbeat and that the other 2 were resolving. Very sad but very happy. It was the very first time I'd ever seen a heartbeat inside of me.
Then at 9 weeks the Dr. confirmed that it was a very healthy pregnancy but my cervix is very short and that I most likely wont make it full term. He told me strict bed rest and that in order to save the baby I had to be at least 24 weeks. OMG what shocking news. I didn't realize how bad it was until they put me in the hospital at 20 weeks because my cervix was at a .8. Well thank god I made it till 26 weeks 1 day.
You can check out my birth story.
Today I have my beautiful little girl. She's healthy and beautiful. She's my angel on earth and more than anything I could ask for.
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