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11-9-2009 - HURT.. UPSET & C0NFUSEd.. WHY ME =/

My mood while writing this blog: i SH0ULdVA KN0W bETTER..

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dAMN.. AFTER i PUT S000 MUCH iNT0 0UR RELATi0NSHiP T0 KEEP US T0GETHER & T0 KEEP Y0U HAPPY.. Y0U UP & LEAVE..??!.. N0 T0 MENTi0N iM 7 ANd A HALF M0NTHS PREGNANT WiTH Y0UR bABY... i SWEAR i GAVE THiS b0Y EVERY FUCKiN THANG d0G! MAYbE THATS WHERE i MESSEd UP AT. dAMN WHY d0 dUdES G0TTA bE S0 FUCKiN HEARTLESS. (S0RRY F0R THE LANGUAGE).

STiLL CANT bELiEVE iTS 0VER bETWEEN US.. i MEAN i KN0W WE HAd A FEW UP ANd d0WNS 0VER THE PAST FEW M0NTHS bUT SHid WHAT C0UPLE dNT ARGUE!! i SWEAR T0 Y0U iM S000 HURT. i MEAN i did S0 MUCH F0R THiS dUdE & CAREd b0UT HiS ASS A WH0LE L0T. HE WAS MY HEART. i PUT S0000 MUCH iNT0 0UR RELATi0NSHiP JUST T0 KEEP US HAPPY.. i GUESS i WASNT G00d EN0UGH F0R HiM.

N0W THAT WE bR0KE UP HES TALKiN T0 THiS CHiCK THAT i REALLY dNT LiKE. i NEVER LiKEd THE GiRL. SHES REAL CHiLdiSH ANd MESSY. HE KNEW i didNT LiKE HER bEF0RE HE STARTEd MESSiNG WiTH HER. bUT TALKEd T0 HER ANYWAYS. i FiNd THAT REAL FUCKEd UP. bUT THEN HE CLAiMS HE STiLL L0VE ANd CARE b0UT ME. dUdE H0W Y0U S0 CALL STiLL CARE b0UT ME ANd L0VE ME WHEN YOU G0iN WiT MY W0RST ENEMY. (N0T T0 MENTi0N SHE iS bARELY 16 & HES ALM0ST 19!!!) MAN iM S0 HURT. i CANT bELiEVE HE did ME LiKE THiS. && N0T T0 MENTi0N THE GiRL G0ES T0 SCH00L WiTH US & EVERYb0dY iS ALL iN 0UR bUSiNESS.

iM TiREd 0F CRYiNG 0VER HiM CAUSE i KN0W HES N0T W0RTH MY TEARS! & i W0ULd REALLY HATE T0 TAKE HiM bACK AFTER HiS, bUT iM SCAREd iF HE ASK ME T0 bE bACK WiTH HiM i MiGHT ENd UP TELLiNG HiM YES CAUSE i L0VE HiM S0 MUCH. MY HEART iS bR0KEN. i REALLY HATE THE FACT WE HAVE A bABY T0GETHER N0W. i WiSH i NEVER WAS PREGNANT bY HiM.

AT SCH00L i WALK AR0UNd LiKE iT dNT AFFECT ME, bUT EVERY TiME iM JUST SiTTiNG THERE i CANT HELP bUT THiNK b0UT H0W HE did ME. i MEAN WE WAS LiKE THE PREFECT C0UPLE. i dNT UNdERSTANd WHAT WENT WR0NG. iM TiREd 0F HURTiNG. iM TiREd 0F CRYiNG. i WiSH i NEVER L0VEd HiM LiKE i d0.

N0W iM THiNKiNG Ab0UT RENAMiNG MY S0N.. S0 ANY idEAS 0N NAMES W0ULd bE GREAT. i dNT THiNK HE dESERVE T0 HAVE MY S0N NAMEd AFTER HiM. iM KEEPiN FAiTH iN THE L0Rd & H0PiNG i W0NT HURT F0R L0NG. i REALLY dNT NEEd T0 bE STRESSiNG & CRYiNG LiKE THiS WHiLE iM STiLL PREGNANT. ANY AdViCE W0ULd bE GREAT. & THANKS F0R REAdiNG.

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11 Comments on HURT.. UPSET & C0NFUSEd.. WHY ME =/


Mrz.Spencer06 - Monday, 14 Sep
Girl dont be upset. Boys will be boys and you can never expect them to be how you want them to be. And in my opinion thats where us women go wrong, We think that we have our men a certain way until they change on us and then we are all shocked and surprised and upset because things didnt go the way we planned. You have a little man to take care of now and you have to be strong and raise him to be the total opposite of what his father his. Thats what i had to realize with my son. And you are very young girl. When you least expect it the man of your dreams will come and sweep you off your feet. Hey it may even be your baby daddy when he gets his shit together. Until them mama hold your head up and u can send me a private message anytime u want if you need to talk. Cuz i may b young but i have thru it. Hope this helps. Love ya!

Chrisssyp - Monday, 14 Sep
I am sorry to hear this. I would def. NOT name your son after him! It sounds like he needs to grow up and get his priorities straight! It doesn't sound like he is going to be much of a role model for your son. Maybe your better off without him!

msalecia20 - Sunday, 13 Sep
Awww I am so sorry but trust me if you have read any of my blogs I know EXACTLY how you feel. It is hurtful and to know that he is with someone else makes it even worse. I understand you may take him back if he asks and I wont knock you for it because LORD knows I have traveled down that road many times but I will tell you this if it seems like you putting 100 percent effort into it and he is putting 10 percent back up and start putting forth 10 percent also. Show him you dont need him. He might just come back or you just might find the RIGHT man. I know it hurts being 7 months pregnant my husband left me for the girl who attacked me while I was 6 months pregnant also so I know how hard it can be, Just keep your head up and things will get better if you need anyone to talk to I am here

lovingLayla - Saturday, 12 Sep
all i can say is...you went wrong when you gave him everything. Did he give you everything? Its sad that you kind of have to play games,,but its true, you can only give a man a little bit at a time, you have to keep him on edge or he will get used to you or take advantage of you..stay strong, good luck

nadz31 - Saturday, 12 Sep
I think that changing the name is a good thing, it doesnt sound that this man is going to be present in your life of in your child's life. Let him go with that girl if thats what he wants. U have only one man to think about now and thats ur little man! Enjoy your son I am sure you will be fine men come and go and obviously he only cares about himself, you dont deserve to be with someone like that. Head up girl your worth much more than what he can give you.

indigocream - Saturday, 12 Sep
By the way,, there are plenty of men real men that will love you and your baby... dont worry God will provide

indigocream - Saturday, 12 Sep
I like the name Creed... Anywho you did do to much guys alway like the chase... but act like hes dead and have fun enjoy your pregnancy... its some guy that doesnt like him be his friend..not lover... but friend. dont call ur x... and watch him come crawlling back.... The question is do you want him back... I hope you think 5 years ahead and answer... Good Luck and Congrats on the baby boy... Guess what your expecting a son and a CHECK...lol

bluejeans - Saturday, 12 Sep
I am sorry you are going through this. What a bastard....Be strong your way too good to be treated lke that. He shouldnt be doing this at all let alone when your pregnant. You will probably feel worse before you feel better but you WILL feel better. My mother has been married twice and divorced twice and she told me now she looks back and wonders why she was so upset cos she is so much better off without them.But do what ever makes you happy and take it easy.

bluejeans - Saturday, 12 Sep
I am sorry you are going through this. What a bastard....Be strong your way too good to be treated lke that. He should be doing this at all let alone when your pregnant. You will probably feel worse before you feel better but you WILL feel better. My mother has been married twice and divorced twice and she told me now she looks back and wonders why she was so upset cos she is so much better off without them.But do what ever makes you happy and take it easy.

lynn2009 - Saturday, 12 Sep
I'm sorry to hear that boo , I don't kno whatvto tell u because no matter what, in the end the decision is urs( to b wit him or not) do what u feel is best. I pray u b ok tho cause stress isn't good. But kno it's not impossible to take care of ur son alone. smile sweetie!

Chocolate-LEO - Friday, 11 Sep
GIRL Im going to be very blunt with you...BUT FUCK THAT SORRY ASS MAN ( AND YOU KNOW "MAN IS NOT THE WORD I WANTED TO USE, MORE LIKE THE N WORD!). I know you love him and your heart is hurting right now, but "TIME" heals all wonds! Its sounds to be like he has made his mind up about who he wans to deal with, and thats fine and cool! Dont swet the little stuff! Because like I tell all my friends, "THEY ALWAYS COME BACK!" and so far I never been wrong. But yes girl keep it together for you and your son. If he want s to start acting all crazy when the baby gets here, then put him on child support and keep it moving! But honestly, I wish you two the best and hope that you two can work things out, and if not, then i hope he is man enought to be a "FATHER" and not just a "DADDY". Girl sleep on te situation, cry if you need to and do what you got to do to get it out of your system. At this point in time you dont need to put that baby under any stress! So take it easy, relax and clear your mind, heart, and soul!