27-4-2009 - Upcoming Appointment

My mood while writing this blog: Nervous

I don't know if I am coming or going lately. I am all over the place. I am starting to get more and more nervous about my appointment on Wednesday.

All I really know is that it is something to do with breast cancer as I have a family history of it on my mums side. I have been told to take a urine sample and any medication I am taking. I don't know what to expect if it is going to be just a chat about risks, the operation, my family etc or if they are going to do any kind of tests. The surgeons secretary who called me the other week said I have to have this appointment first incase they require something else to be done different in the operation other than a straight forward reduction.

I am not sure if I have just been incredibly stupid or not, but I have just been looking about on the net about breast cancer facts and I have just gone and worried myself more! One of the things I have read are:

"A woman with one affected first degree relative (mother or sister) has approximately double the risk of breast cancer of a woman with no family history of the disease; if two (or more) relatives are affected, her risk increases further" Great, my mum had and two of my Aunties (mums side) died of breast cancer!

I am just so pleased Mark has managed to get the day off work Wednesday to take me. If anyone at all has had, or knows anyone who has had experience with this please let me know what happened, just to put me at ease. I know I only have a 1 in 1,900 chance of actually having something wrong, but I still feel so scared. I didn't think I would feel like this at all, but as my appointment is getting closer and am thinking about it a lot more.