08-6-2009 - Still in pain, But LOVIN the boobs

My mood while writing this blog: Been better

It's been 3 weeks since the op and thinks are slowly but surely getting better.

Mark had the first week off. When I actually had the operation he was so fantastic. My mum then came down to look after me and the kids the following week. Bless her Caiden was waking up at 5am, and my Mum is such a light sleeper. By Friday she was totally shattered.

Although one good thing came out of it. Whenever my Mum used to come to visit she would always comment on something like, Oh Emma is that all you ironing? Or Well when you were a baby, my house was spotless! lol Mothers *tut* But when she went back she has been telling everyone at work how well I do. She also said she will never ever comment on my house ever again. lol. My house is not dirty and I am constantly cleaning, but because it is fairly small it can get cluttered really quickly. By the time you have got the kids up, fed, washed, dressed, breakfast dishes done, it's heading on time for lunch and it is just constant. So when I tell my mum I have not sat down all day I actually meant it. Now she has lived it first hand. My mum has never had 2 small children to look after at the same time, the smallest age gap is 6 years lol.

Also Mark has had last week off. And he also realises now how much I do. He has tried so hard, I have literally done nothing which sounds nice, but it's so frustrating when all I want to do is hoover, and bleach my loo ha ha. It is so hard because I still can't pick up Caiden I just see him playing and want to hold him, with Cameron it's not too bad because I can do other things with him and read his bedtime story every night. But the only problem I have is that Mark is trying so hard, but I see things that he does not do, like wipe the draining board after drying the dishes, or wiping the doors down, hoover, polish, clean the bathroom, but because he is trying I don't want to nag him lol. I never thought I would look forward to actually being able to clean.

Mark has gone back to work this week so MIL has the kids. Mark dropped us all off at MIL this morning, but I started really hurting, close to tears so MIL dropped me off back home and kept the kids with her until Mark can pick them up tonight. I feel so useless. I got a bag out the boot of her car and I had to get her to come out and shut it as I couldn't reach up to pull it down lol. Also Mark put a chocolate bar on the top shelf in the fridge, ON PURPOSE lol. So when I asked him to get it, he was like "What? this chocolate bar? that one? the one right there? Are you sure? You reall want it? Then said no and shut the door and laughed at me. Till I hit him ha. Then he got it.

I am still struggling to reach up and stretch, I can lift my arms up, and move them about, but I keep getting really piercing sharp shooting pains, also the left side is really sore, the left side still looks red and swollen. I am still struggling to sleep as well and still having to take painkillers regularly. I can't wait ti be all healed up and put this all behind me. I am so pleased I have had this done though. Everyone has commented on how much better I look. It's strange because people keep asking to look at my boobs. Before the op, men used to comment and stare, now it women lol ha.

Anyway long blog now and Mark is messaging me on Skype asking if my boobs have fell off lol.

Hope you are all well. xxx