21-11-2008 - Stressing out!!

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

Ok I needed somewhere to vent!!! I am like totally starting to stress out that my due date is getting so close, and not because I'm nervous about being a mom or anything like that. In fact I can't wait for my little man to be here and I wish it were February so I can hold him and take care of him! However, my dilemma is work right now. See I have a job that I love, but it is outside the home, so I have been working on training to be a medical transcriptionist over the past couple months so that I can work from home and be with my little man when he comes. See the plan was to finish this training and start doing this part time before he comes to make sure I have the hang of this before I have to leave my other job in February. However this training is taking longer than I had planned. There are 3 parts and I have been on the first part for two months now. I guess I'm nervous about it too because I have no medical training what so ever (which is not required to do this), but it just makes me more nervous about actually being able to do this! And say I even get the hang of it and get my certification and all, the company I'm training with says the only hire their "top graduates" so I'm not even guaranteed a job when I finish the training!! And to make things worse, I've tried looking around online for other positions and like everybody wants you to already have like 5 years experience or something! And if that doesn't make me nervous enough, knowing that I have like no other option is just the icing on the cake. You might be thinking 'well you might just have to stay at your current job and send your little guy to day care after all' (which by the way is like my worst nightmare), but the thing is I truely can't do that. Between my husband and I's salary if we had to pay for daycare too we would have no money left over.....seriously!! And no one in our family lives around here to be able to take care of him for us! Ok so now maybe you understand why I'm so worried right now. I know stressing isn't good for the baby so I try to not think about it and stay upbeat and everything, but I just feel like I have so much to do right now! Not just this training, but trying to finish the nursery and get ready for my little man to be here too!! (which of course is what I'd so much rather be doing right now than worrying about money!!) Anyways, any advice or warm happy thoughts from you guys would be much appreciated right now : ) Or if you know of anyone who is a medical transcriptionist who can help put some of my worrying at ease about all this then I would love that cause I feel like I have no one I can get advice from on this ya know!!??

On a happier note, I turn 27 weeks tomorrow!! Do you realize that means we are only 10 weeks from being considered full term!! Aaaahhhhh!!! I feel like just yesterday I was only 6 weeks and so nauseous I never thought I'd make it this far :-P I can't wait to meet my little man! I guess I just need to have faith that everything will work out ok and that I'll be taken care of! Anyways, thanks for listening guys!! Gotta get back to my training now!