12-1-2009 - So close yet so far away!

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

34 WEEKS!! I never thought this day would come, and yet there are still so many days left to go!!

I just had my last baby shower on Saturday, and while it was an absolute blast, I'm 100% exhausted!! I feel like I am to the point of panic now because I have to sit down and figure out exactly what I don't have yet and how much it's all going to cost! Luckily there is a lot of stuff you don't need RIGHT away, so I'm going to put off as much as possible till after he is born so I can take advantage of all of the "registry completion" discounts that are available. However, it still feels like there is so much to do and while time feels like it is standing still while I sit here at work, it's really flying by especially when you don't know when the little stinker is going to arrive!

Speaking of work, have any of you other ladies out there who are still working begun to feel this almost sense of hatred toward your job lately? While I love everyone I work with, I woke up this morning and decided I absolutely want nothing to do with my job anymore. Mainly because all I want to do is stay home and work on getting things finished for my little man to arrive. That and I'm so tired lately, that I just want to fall alseep at my computer! But I seriously have no motivation to do anything at work anymore, so I find myself just staring at the calendar trying to figure out how many more days I have! Plus I'm getting tired of everyone asking when I'm going to start my maternity leave cause it just reminds me that I'm not on it yet! While I could start it anytime I want to really, I'm trying to hold off as long as I physically, and emotionally can cause I want to have as much time with my little guy as possible. Yet at the same time I feel like I should try and take as much time off before he comes as possible to try and rest up!

Anyways, I think I'm starting to drive myself crazy with all the things running through my head right now (which is probably one of the reasons I'm not sleeping well anymore). When I lay down to go to sleep at night all I can think about is where I'm going to hang a picture in the nursery, or how I'm going to organize his dresser, and so on and so forth. My mind is going so fast in so many directions that I can be utterly exhausted and lay down to go to bed and be wide awake all over again, cause all I want to do is get up and do all the stuff I'm thinking about, but I can't cause I have to try and sleep cause I have to go to stupid work still!!! Aaaahhhh!! Sorry for all the rambling, but I'm sure you ladies know what I'm talking about.

Oh yeah, and does anyone else feel like a bottomless pit lately!?!? I feel like I absolutely cannot eat enough, and all it takes is for me to smell something, or see something, or hear someone even mention something and it makes me want to eat! My weight gain so far has been perfectly average so I'm not worried about that, but I can't seem to keep enough food in the house to keep me happy :-P

Not only that, but I feel like my body temperature has all of a sudden gone crazy! I'm normally the one who is absolutely freezing all the time, and I sit here at work in the dead of winter with short sleeves on and a fan blowing on me and I'm still hot!! And not just hot, but like sweating hot! So it makes me feel really gross and uncomfortable. My husband absolutely loves it cause he gets hot really easily and we normally argue over the temperature of the house, but right now we hardly even have the heat running. I think the temperature the thermostat is set on right now is 65 and I still wake up sweating at night! It's absolutely crazy! I know that is one pregnancy symptom my hubby is hoping will stick around after I have the little guy : )

Oh well, hope all you ladies are doing ok, and hopefully it won't be too much longer till we have our little guys here with us!!!