12-9-2009 - freaked out

My mood while writing this blog: Ok

ok so basically like my title says im FREAKED OUT

i jus threw up. I had a sudden wave of nausea then i ran to the bathroom to puke. i haven't really had any other symptoms other than being super bitchy and emotional, oh well i have an extreme amount of C/M but i've had that before and turned out not pregnant.

i am actually 3 days late so far. im not prepared to do any testing until im a week late. i haven't felt any cramps yet to assume my period is coming but right now since i don't know if i actually am cuz i literally threw up like 8 minutes ago, so it could be my abs achin from that. and i have built up gas (tmi sry)

im freaked out cuz i jus started a new job. this is exactly the right time AT ALL. Plus im getting married in APRIL 28th, 2010. So if im pregnant than CRAP cuz i already have my size 6 dress so...being 37 weeks will definelty NOT fit into my expensive gown....god......i would love to have a baby yes, BUT i stopped trying a while ago, its not fair if i am .

i'll keep the blog updated!

MKAY so now im offcially 8 DAYS LATE!!! I refuse to test until im exactly two weeks late. I feel like everytime i think i may be im not so i'm probably not. My body is jus f*****g with me again. AF is such a lil bitch. Anyways i told you ladies i'd keep you updated. I have really no symptoms except that my boobs are a lil sore/heavy and i keep gettin a lil nausous! WHO KNOWS WHATS GOING ON. I want to be prego ofcourse, but right now is really the wrong time, BUT im definetly not praying im NOT prego. I still want to be pregnant very very bd. So im torn and freaked out.

11:10 pm. Still late! Its going to be 10-11 days late tomorrow i believe. 11 days according to my calculations and other websites, but i-am-pregnant.com says i will be 10 days late tomorrow. Anyways. I'm exhausted. I went to the fair with the fam. Walked around and now my legs are throbbing from pain.

Is my period gonna come or what! I hate when my AF messes with my body and my head!

12 dayls late.....still no sign of AF.

Yes they have arrived, I believe. SYMTOMS! If i end up NOT being prego then all of this will turn out to be really silly lol.

Symptoms: Frequent Urination (I've been awake for about 2 hours now and I've gone to the bathroom 3 times), Nausea (not severe, only when i don't eat or when i eat too much), Mild cramping (but NO period), Breast soreness/heaviness, Late period (obviously), o LOTS of CM! (like nothing i've seen before!).

We are getting a test tonight. The plan is to test monday moring, but im still really scared to test. I don't wanna be dissappointed again. I'm really late tho!!!!!!!!