07-7-2009 - GETTING INDUCED TOMMORROW!

My mood while writing this blog: EXCITED BUT NERVOUS

HI LADIES... I THOUGHT I WOULD WRITE A BLOG TONIGHT BECAUSE IN THE MORNING I WILL BE TOO TIRED TO WRITE BECAUSE WE HAVE TO BE AT THE HOSPITAL AT 5:45 AM.. wHICH MEAN I GOTTA GET UP AT LIKE 4AM.. YEAH IF I EVEN SLEEP... I AM SO NERVOUS.. I DONT KNOW WHY.. I HAVE DONE THIS BEFORE.. I GUESS ITS JUST THAT I KNOW THERE IS GONNA BE SOME PAIN AND THAT I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TOO..

I HAVE PACKED AND UNPACKED MY BAGS LIKE TWICE BECAUSE I KEEP PACKING TOO MUCH STUFF.. I HAVE BEEN JUST A WRECK ALL DAY.. ITS SO MUCH HARDER WHEN YOU GET INDUCED RATHER THEN WAITING FOR THE BABY TO DESIDE TO COME.. I DONT HAVE MUCH A CHOICE IF I WANNA AVOID A C-SECTION BECAUSE THIS BABY GIRL IS BIG LIKE THE LAST..

I AM 39 WEEKS SO SHE IS READY.. AM I? WILL I REMEMBER WHAT ITS LIKE TO HAVE A BABY AGAIN? MY OTHER DAUGHTER US 5 YEARS OLD.. WILL IT JUST COME NATURAL? WILL I GET THAT POST PARTUM DEPRESSION EVERYONE TALKS ABOUT? GOD I SURE HOPE NOT.. I AM A DAM WORRY WART!! AND THE OLDER I GET.. THE MORE I WORRY .. AND NOW I HAVE A LITTLE BABY COMING!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

MY HUSBAND IS AWSOME SO I KNOW HE WILL BE THERE FOR ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY.. I HOPE IT GOES BY FAST.. MY DOCTOR SAID SHE WILL GIVE ME MY EPIDURAL AS SOON AS THEY START THE PITOSIN AND THE CONTRACTIONS START UP .. SHE SAID SHE WONT MAKE ME WAIT.. I DONT KNOW IF ITS BECAUSE I WORK WITH HER OR THATS A NEW THING THEY DO.. THEY DIDNT DO THAT WHEN I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY OTHER DAUGHTER.. THEY MADE ME WAIT UNTIL I WAS A 4... WHICH TOOK FOREVER.. ALSO I HAD BAD BACK LABOR SO IT DIDNT EVEN WORK ALL THAT GREAT..

WELL I AM GONNA STAY POSITIVE AND I THINK I AM GONNA REST.. REST WHILE I CAN.. PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS FOR A FAST AND SAFE DELIVERY... AND WHEN I GET HOME I WILL POST THE DETAILS AND PICTURES... GOODNIGHT LADIES... JEN