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	Age: 20 01/21 Country: THE GREAT OLE U.S.A. Province/region: NY City: NYC Partner: My hubby of 2 years and partner of 12 Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Yes Due date: 05 May ,2010 Occupation: Med Student
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27-7-2009 - He's leaving

My mood while writing this blog:
Ok

Well my husband found out a few days ago that he got accepted into the school and he really wants to go. Its all he talks about now for the past few days and I can tell he is really excited. I don't want him to go, but I cant stand in his way. I put on a front that I am happy for him, but its tearing me up that he is actually going through with it. I guess because I have never been away from him for a long period of time, but he moved all the way to New York for me. Its just that I have this feeling that something awful is going to happen between us and this is 12 years of my life and I am only 20, so I am very attached to him. I feel like I am going to be a single mom because my daughter will be with me and I will have to struggle to raise her on my own for two years, work and go to school. I dont know how I will manage, but I really don't have a choice. He has a few weeks before he leaves and I really don't want him to go. He's talking about trying for another baby, but yet he wants to leave and go south. I am really thinking about going to the dr so I can get on the pill without telling him.

Part of me wish I would have torn that letter up instead of giving it to him.
I lock myself in the bathroom and cry because I know it's going to be hard without him here. He doesnt seem to understand that I need and his daughter need him as well.

I dont know, am I being selfish???

5 Comments on He's leaving

heaven - Wednesday, 29 Jul
I think you need to let him go. He is better himself for you and your daughter. he cannot provide for his family without an education. it's going to be hard but you gotta let him go

Jmajor-payne - Tuesday, 28 Jul
Girl I read that title of your blog and was like "WHO LEAVING??" But no u are not being selfish but just tell him how u feel don't make him feel guilty for leaving but let it be known your feelings are hurt...but u are going to be a strong mother and wife while he is gone and u gonna handle business and make him proud and he do the same with his grades!!!! GOOD LUCK what school he goin to?

Rubes - Tuesday, 28 Jul
Tell him how you feel, but don't discourage his dreams. It will only build resentment, especially if he decides to stay. If possible, reach a compromise. Finish your education, and join him.. As for being a single-mum temporarily --well, I get the impression that you're a strong woman who would manage brilliantly with work, college and mothering. xxx

dinahmite425 - Monday, 27 Jul
WHERE IS HE MOVING TO? WHY CANT YOU GO WITH HIM?

nikkinu - Monday, 27 Jul
No your not being selfish! I would feel exactly the same and what your doing is amazing and the most least selfish thing you could do by supporting him and letting him go. I guess you just got to keep supporting him and maybe you should tell him how you feel.

Hope you feel better soon and hope he changes his mind and stays.

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