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KENNEDYS MOMMY
	Age: 20 01/21 Country: THE GREAT OLE U.S.A. Province/region: NY City: NYC Partner: My hubby of 2 years and partner of 12 Children: Yes, 1 Pregnant: Yes Due date: 05 May ,2010 Occupation: Med Student
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29-9-2009 - some updates....

My mood while writing this blog:
so sleepy, but cant go to bed just yet...arg!!!

so its nearly 2:30 am and I am just now gettin home from school and lab. I could not imagine having my daughter here with me and just now picking her up from someone else's residence just to drop her back off at 7 to be back at school at 8. I probably wont be getting any sleep tonight, because I have a huge chem test in the morning and a lab test in the afternoon. Regardless of what anyone else thinks I think I made the right decision giving her to my mom for the school year. This is just no way of raising a child when you only get to see her 4 or 5 hours out of the day. I knew it was going to be bad and for the next 5 years or so, this will be my life if I wanna have MD behind my name one day. Kennedy knows mommy loves her and I am doing this so that I can have a better life for our family one day. Also my husband called again today, I told him about the new baby and the plans for adoption . Of course he opposed but he is not here to take care of it is he. He wont be here for the pregnancy, the birth, or the first year and some months of its life, so its not like he is concerned if he was concerned at all, he would have dropped everything and come home on a plane to help me take care of it, but he's not. So I think I made the best decision to give up my baby. I am not going to be a 3 hr mom, to someone who needs me 24 hrs.

4 Comments on some updates....

dinahmite425 - Wednesday, 30 Sep
your making things easier on your self with the adoption!! but what about the child you beleive will be better off with the adopted parents, why? your child will always feel abadonded!!! my daughter cries all the time my 12 year just becuase her real dad is not really around for her so i could only wonder what a child that was given away would be feeling on top of that you have a daughter so wow your child will think why did my mom keep my sis and not me, i might be coming off mean but this is real stuff this will haunt the unborn child i see alot of people give you advice like do what is best thats bullshit that is not no adivce !! advice is hard to chew and real and that is what im giving you not oh i see how you feel do whats best.honey i have a question what if you do the adpotion your hubby comes home in a year and bam you get pregnant again then what? another adoption? all i can say is you cant just have an adoption becuase your in school, its seems like a good reason but you are not only affecting your life your affecting the childs , the father grandparents etc.. next i just want you to know as a medical professional a doc will always have a very busy life!! so you will always have to be away from your kids for long periods of time so thats life also... i do feel you!!! i missed my 1st borns 1st day of kindergarden and 1st grade becuase of my clinicals at school that i could not miss i cried my eyes out but i would never think about giving my child away my child is what kept me in school becuase i new life will be better... i also work long shifts i work 12 hours, i used to work 16 hour shifts so i do understand but why not move where your hubby goes to school or where your mom lives for support why not live with your mom so when you come home its to her and your child instead of all by yourself.. i was not married when i was in school and honestly i dont know how people could be married during hard programs like law, nursing, md goodluck

dinahmite425 - Wednesday, 30 Sep
life is hard, im a nurse so i see student docs all the time and it will get worse you will be doing rotations for 15 hours a day and some days you will be at the hospital for 24 hours!! so yo cant run away from that, i understand you getting help from your mom but guess what you will be very busy the rest of your life doctors fet paid well becuase of the time required of them!!! i would never want to be a doc but if you really want to be a doc you have to be able to deal with basically having no life, they get called all through out the day over and over again. i work at night so beleive me i call the docs all the time and thery are half sleep and they have to talk to me and give me orders... they hardly see the famlies most of them not all so this thing about not being able to see y9our daughter will not go away if you plan on beling a doc it is life!!! my sister in law has a 1 year old and had to go away for 6 weeks for med school stuff thats life!!! you get through it!! when i was in nursing school i woke up at 6 came home at 10pm and had a baby so i do understand thats why i waited 12 years to have another baby i did not want Amani to deal with what my frst child dealt with !!!

mfbrown - Wednesday, 30 Sep
I see what others mean below, have you checked on the fact that you are married and what that means to adoption? That'd be an important thing to check. Other than that, I think it's a good thing that you told him about it, it'd be a very hard thing to keep to yourself... Also I think that you are right about having your DD stay with your mom for while too. Makes sense! She'll understand in the long run and at least you know that she's in safe hands and getting the 1 on 1 time that she needs too.

bluejeans - Tuesday, 29 Sep
Wow you seem like such a strong woman I wish you the best of luck: )

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